Penang 11-13dec 2007

photo taken at kek lok si


4 beauties at gurney



9 lengzai n lenglui at penang hill

JUST FOR KP

昨天yesterday 在at 静雯的jingwen's 家house 遇见saw kp。他he 投诉说complaint that 我的my 部落格blog 都is 用using 华语chinese 写的write one，害harm 他him 看see 不not 明understand，没no 办法solution 啦la，我my 英文english 超super 烂broken 的one 。

其实actually kp很very 可爱cute 的one，你you 不要dont 看see 他his 样子face 像like 88年year的one，其实actually 他he 是is 87，但是but 行为attitude 像like 89啦la！

你you 不要dont 以为think kp不会dunno 华语chinese 字word 哦oo，他he 可是actually 能can 写得write 一one 手hand 好good 书法calligraphy 的one！不dun 信believe 你you 问问ask 那that 宝贝dear ahbeh 就then will 知道know 了already。

除此之外besides，kp 还also 会know 打麻将play mahjong，不要dun 看see 他he 一幅one 香蕉的banana's 样子look，他he 可can 懂得know 分辨differentiate 东east、南south、西west、北north、中middle、发prosperous，这this 六个six 字words。

如果if 没有no kp，我i 想think ，昨天yesterday 一定sure 给give 闷bored 坏bad 了，因为because 。。。我们we 就then 没有no 牌cards 玩play 了already ！！！谢谢thanks kp!!

坏心情

今天不高兴，不快乐，不爽，气不顺，又来搞情绪化，想打电话个人，翻来翻去，都不知道要打给谁。所以说，不可以让自己那么得空，一得空那心就会纳闷。

今天早上打了一个电话，一个不会有人接听的电话。既然知道那人不会听，干吗还要等他回电？既然知道那人会觉得自己开始有点烦了，干吗还要缠着他不放？你说有改变是好的，那我应该改变对那人的感觉了，对不？

那天做了一个我觉得需要很多勇气去做的事情，而现在，我需要更大的勇气去承担那后果。没有大结局的结果，最让观众期待的，对不？也许你做了一件很对的事，只是，错的还是我，不愿纠正的还是我，对不？还是，其实，我已经没有勇气去面对了？

既来之，则安之。安乎？还是，我其实对了，解决了长久以来的问题？所以问题真的消失了，只是，新的问题，又出现了。为什么我就是找不到两全其美的方案？为什么我就是过不了自己那关？为什么自己总是那么的无能？

突然想起一首歌，一首曾经产生误会的歌。
=以为断了这份爱 就能笑著醒过来=
不管结局怎么坏 我会勇敢撑下来

回

要回去upm了，心情有点沉重。每次想到要写部落格的时候，总是又想不完的新意；但当手指放在键盘上时，头脑就一片空白。今天就写一下有惊无险的星期一吧！

星期一我和彩桓约了碧仪在kelana jaya lrt站，然后一起搭lrt去kl centre meet 舒琪，在搭monorail去impi，然后走路去lowyat。我和彩桓在12.05pm到了kelana jaya，不相约的时间迟了五分钟，最近我学会了迟到，因为身边的人不再准时了。买了票后，我们就等碧仪。一直到12.40pm，碧仪依然不见踪影，舒琪sms说再等一下吧，反正还有时间。后来彩桓觉得越来越不对劲，因为碧仪的电话从没人听到打不通，感觉有点像彩桓上次在pangkor不见电话一样。幸好我电话里有碧仪妈妈的电话号码，我们就call她，问问看碧仪出了门没。怎知她说碧仪十一点半就出门了，从十一点半到一点，不要说kelana jaya，连lowyat都可以到了啦。。后来晓薇叫我们到carpark看有没有碧仪的车，我和彩桓竟然发现她的车停在一个较偏僻的地方。碧仪的电话依然打不进，我们最后决定call她的男朋友，看看有什么可以帮忙。结果连晓薇她们也来了kelana jaya，我们六个人正想着要如何寻找碧仪时，我电话突然间响起，那傻婆碧仪在lowyat打电话给我！结果我们本来打算不去唱k，也哭笑不得地搭lrt去lowyat。寻找碧仪任务在2.40pm结束。结果也没什么结果，碧仪就这样被我们讲了大概半个钟吧，然后她再请我们唱k到晚上九点。

这事件有什么启发呢？我想，在茫茫人海中要找一个人真的很不容易，不要让自己迷失了方向，人再难找也会找到；但心不见了，就真的是大海捞沙了。这件事让我知道，原来眼泪是可以为喜悦而流，可以为友情而流，不要再为心碎而流了，再者，心，不会比上次碎得严重了；眼泪，也不会比上次流得多了。

冬菇头

刚刚剪了头发，一个从来都没有尝试过的发型，刚剪的时候还好的，但头发干了后就走形了。。糟糕，明天还要见人的。。

第一个收到风的是我那兄弟，他竟然问我，是不是失恋了？=.="法律好像没有规定失恋才能剪头发的哦。。那么，爱上一个让你失恋的人算不算又失恋？不是，是吧！所以，我很正常地把那长发给剪短。

圣诞节要到了。。从来都没有一起庆祝过圣诞，对吧？马来西亚也不会下雪，没有雪人可堆。。忘了是谁告诉我，他/她喜欢那一摇就有雪花飘落的玻璃瓶。雪花飘落是凄美的，不是吗？这圣诞，希望有雪人陪的人会幸福。。

上学期的成绩出炉了。。cgpa 3.8472, 3A,2A-,1B+,中等成绩。。我那宝贝美廷得3.97，6A 1A-。看来，我们可以大吃一顿了！！

命运

如果说我患上了老人痴呆症，想必我也不能否认了。记忆怎么就一直停留在以前？记得以前朋友的名字，记得waikit,euharn,yaobing，就是记不得大学同班同学的名字。。昨天在pyramid碰到waikit他们，就站在路边开始谈天了。。怎样说也不怎么对，我和他们，除了waikit是以前同班同学以外，其他三人，都才是认识三天的朋友。。。怎么这样说呢？他们三位和我，本来就是一个天一个地，碰到面也不会知道是同校生。。但，往往命运就是这样，安排好我们会一起去槟城玩。命运总爱作弄人，让不相识的人碰上，却让相识的人分离。。我想这么久以来，我最失败的，是败给了天时地利人和。。在错的时候做对的事情是错的；在对的时候做错的事情就更错了。。命运怎么就不会给我在对的时候做对的事？

决定把记事本的主角换掉了。命运是不是正安排着我？等着我改变自己的命运？还是它已经在暗笑着我？笑我不知道他已安排好一条崎岖的路给我，还是笑我破坏了它的安排？以前曾说，自己的命运是掌握在自己的手中，但，牵涉别人的命运就在我能力之外了。

二零零六年十二月八日，一个值得让我去纪念的日子。如果时间可以停留在那天，多好！但时间会停吗？不会。那，还会好吗？我想见你，不需要理由，只想静静的，好像那天一样，你还会有多余的时间让我见吗？

Busy Week 23nov - 1dec

23 nov..
due to the trip to penang, i terpaksa went out to work, so that i get enough money to "feng".. my sister told me there will be a event in summit on 23,24,25 nov n the organizer, which is game fliers need about 8 part timers, from 11.30pm to 9.30pm, RM80 per day, lunch n dinner provided.. n so, i went for the job with her, shuchi, jason n joel... dun wan write grandmother story here, just wanna tell u guys, its super easy job...

24 nov..
continued with the job, continued sitting there selling biscuits, eating cookies, continued have the super nice lunch n dinner, n continued close the stall at 8.30pm..but kesian jason has to be " ku lei"...

25 nov..
the last day of job, get the salary, total RM240 by today. this time changed joel become the "ku lei" as jason really beh tahan with it...this 3 days job really super easy, like sit there, eat there, watch the artist there,n the money will just drop to my pocket..i saw few artist, like anthony n amber chia + some i really dunno who they r...

26nov..
went to tapah (perak) n stay at joel's grandmother's hotel... his grandparents really very nice, belanja us makan all those delicious one...after the dinnner, jason n joel teach me n choywan to play mahjong ( 3 ka) n both of us learnt very fast, won for many times!!! played until 3.30am..=.="

27nov..
planned for gua tempurung in the morning, but due to lack of ppl ( minimum has to be 8ppl to go for the wet + dry) , we cannot go visit gua tempurung n we decided to visit it tomorrow early morning.. so, what to do for the whole day?? we went visit kellie's castle n took a video cam there... kellies castle is a symbol of love, as u can see many " i love u, u love me" written there..after that, we decided to go ipoh n stay in jason's grandmother's house.. n, mahjong time again...

28nov..
finally visited gua tempurung n grazed my knee n arm...remember last time u said guys can protect girls well in gua tempurung..n joel "protected" me this time..reached subang at about 8pm..tired!!!!!haizz.. still need to wash all those dirty clothes..

29nov..
planned to wash the clothes in the morning, before went to play badminton..but failed.. this day got me, allan, beh n yiming played...3 of them very geng, especially yiming.. haha.. went to have banana leaf after that.. i swear i wont try it anymore!!

30nov..
bring grandma to sjmc..luckily my cousin accompany us, if not, sure i will kelam kabut de..tired day!! waited for long time to see the doctor for less than 10 minutes... haizzz....

1dec..
went singk with peckyee, choywan, yansan,ernhuey,shuchi.. my dear ernhuey looked mature de..n my lovely shuchi still stay cutezz..

=no matter how busy i am,i just cant stop myself from let u entering my mind. hope there will be one day, i become brave enough..=

十一月二十二日

一年就这样过去了。。。昨天晚上十一点半，就开始很放纵地让眼泪流出来。。流得眼睛累了，鼻子塞了，整张脸粘粘地。。然后今天起身，眼睛肿得不像样。。不得不赞一下自己很聪明，把今天的活动全推了，就是不要让人看到我眼睛。。以前每次哭得眼睛肿钟的，然后就会很努力地逃避和你眼神接触的机会。。我宁愿让你觉得我无情，也不要让你知道我的悲伤。。

去年的今天，stpm还在进行中，那天考chemisty。。下午两点的paper...那天早上我弹了很久的钢琴，我好怕我会弹错。。然后终于鼓起勇气拨了个电话给你。。这是第一次，也是唯一一次，有人可以在电话中听到我的琴声。。我当然没有小雨弹得好听，但，值得一赞的是，我好有勇气的弹完整首歌。。双手已经冷冰冰的，所有的血好像变成硬块似的。。眼睛看着歌谱，头脑却全是空白。。弹完后好高兴，因为，弹一首歌给你听一直都是我的心愿。。。

前年的今天，那时我还在lowersix。。在bio lab 做project。。然后你们就说要去old town吃午餐。。那天的午餐，我吃的是鸳鸯炒，又名广府炒。。如果没有那天的午餐，就没有今天这一篇文章。。没有那天的old town，就没有今天的我。。。


你哭着对我说童话里都是骗人的我不可能是你的王子也许你不会懂从你说爱我以后我的天空星星都亮了

书橱的回忆

刚才收拾我的书橱，发现好多我以忘了好久的回忆。。那应该是中五的回忆吧！

一张纸上的一首歌，那，应该是歌来的，好像是伟耀作的。。

在纸上写下你的名字
将纸卷起放进一个瓶里
相距几十万里
祝福也将为你送去

计算地球南北极的差距
想把所有的梦想都收集
记得在同一片土地
你我留下的生命标记

飞过平原森林小溪
发现自己原来不能苏醒
一起经历风雨的你
原能 深呼吸飞行

chorus: 从此
不管是晴天是雨天是夏天是冬天
我们会将友情放在身边
不再计较这一切
不管是什么落叶季节

不管是白天是黑天是春天是秋天
我们约定必须再次见面
不在借以这一切
不管天气是怎么改变

只有你不变


还有一张纸，应该是学丽的字迹：

在我们心中，常会有些“恐惧、迟疑、或懒惰”，也曾找许多理由来“合理化自己”;这就如同在我面前，遇见了一个蜘蛛网一样，心想--要不要走过去？还是打退堂鼓？然而，只要打定主意，伸出手来，轻轻地把蜘蛛网清除干净了，不再有阻碍了，我们的心，也顿时轻松自在了，不是吗？其实，很多事都没有想象中的困难，鼓起勇气试试看，做做看，就会了！每个人都必须订定“近期目标”，即知即行、立刻去做。
“放弃，只要一句话；成功，却要靠无数的坚持！”
“做与不做"的一念之间，都在决定我们自己的今日于明日呀！
（摘自《你可以更杰出》）


最后应该轮到我上场了吧。。。

每一株玫瑰都有刺，正如每一个人的性格中都有你不能容忍的部分；爱一朵玫瑰并不是把它的刺除去，而是学习，如何不被他刺刺伤，和--不让自己的刺刺伤爱的人


还有一个，不知道在那儿抄来的。。

同窗五载 走过几许风雨
与风追逐 与云遨游
风儿 花儿 月儿 我都在 你还会在吗
韶光一逝 也许。。。。。。
不在乎天长地久 只在乎曾经拥有
拥有的 似乎没有真正的 被拥有
但愿 彼此之情 天长地久

书香

昨天去绿野仙踪看林叶婷。。果然真人比电视上瘦，比电视上美。。一心以为能成为她手下的模特儿，怎知。。。。竞争对手似乎太厉害了，林叶婷看了我几次都没有选中我。。看来，似乎要反省一下自己的长相了。嘻嘻。。这位台湾的林小姐果然宝刀未老，三几下工夫就把丑小鸭变成天鹅。。原来，头发对于一个人的样貌，竟有那么大的影响力。。要把三千丝烦恼变成三千丝快乐，还真是一门自高无上的学问啊！！

昨天似乎很幸运，在短短的四个小时内遇到两个朋友--〉艺薇( aka lingdar) 和 ms vellery(名字好象spell错了。。）。我那lingdar可变得越来越漂亮了。。真是人见人爱，车间车载，棺材看到都开盖。。。嘻嘻。。而那 V小姐呢，竟然不知道我住在雪州的。。。和她同班半年了，竟然。。。唉，心淡了。。。

昨天蛮高兴的，因为两课成绩出炉了，一个A一个B+。。。算不错了啦。。^^

boring holiday

i can say that my holiday already started, but i still have a paper to sit for.. the last paper for this sem.. SAK3002 aka Computer...

recently a bit siao de... everyday online, surfing, watching movie, call ppl go yamcha, just felt like no need to study liao... apa u sedang buat fung..?

suddenly just feel like wanna go snorkelling again...just feel like wanna go kk again..just feel like wanna go genting again...

im tired studying, tired locked myself in my own world, tired to think...

it's a boring holiday.... i got nothing to do with it...SIEN!!!!!!!

惩罚自己

因为你的任性，因为你的无知，因为你的天真，因为你的愚蠢，因为你是个白痴，因为你是个无赖，因为你是个傻婆，因为你是个不顾他人感受，自私自利，霸道，不讲道理，笨蛋，傻瓜，冲动，喜欢乱想，乱猜，乱发疯，不负责任，口出狂言，矛盾，自尊心强，依赖心强，自我中心，冲头到脚没有一丝好处的废材。

从这一刻开始，诅咒将降临你身上。。。休想在这四年内，有人会爱你，疼你，护你，同情你，可怜你，帮你。休想在这四年里，你的付出会得到回报；休想有人会真心对你。

天使的心从来都是纯白色的，你让它破戒了，不要怪它，这一切都是你自找的。。

ps:对不起，我的心是灰色的。

給懂 〝珍惜〞的人

遇到你真的愛的人時, 要努力爭取和他相伴一生的機會 …!因為當他離去時…一切都來不及了！

遇到可相信的朋友時, 要好好和他相處下去 …因為在人的一生中 … 可遇到知己真的不易 … ！

遇到人生中的貴人時… 要記得好好感激 … 因為他是你人生的轉折點 … ！

遇到曾經愛過的人 … 記得微笑向他感激 … 因為他是讓你更懂愛的人 … ！

遇到曾經愛過的人 … 記得微笑向他感激 … 因為他是讓你更懂愛的人 … ！

遇到曾經背叛你的人時… 要跟他好好聊一聊 … 因為若不是他 …… 今天你不會懂這世界 … ！

遇到曾經偷偷喜歡的人時… 要祝他幸福唷 … ！ 因為你喜歡他時 … 不是希望他幸福快樂嗎？

遇到匆匆離開你人生的人時… 要謝謝他走過你的人生 … 因為他是你精采回憶的一部分 …！

遇到曾經和你有誤會的人時 … 要趁現在解清誤會 … 因為你可能只有這一次機會解釋清楚 …！

遇到現在和相伴一生的人 … 要百分百感謝他愛你 … 因為你們現在都得到幸福和真愛 …

第233天

我又回家了！！！这次在家里会呆上十天，然后跑回去upm考最后一张paper。。。
每天早上起身就会想到你，然后就傻傻地呆上半个钟，再然后傻傻地傻笑。。
说过要对自己好很多点的，不会再让自己受伤害了。
我会努力加油的！！！！


ps:我不会在你身上偷任何一件东西，因为我不会让你失去一切。

寿司之夜

今晚又跟猪朋狗友去吃寿司。。三十三零吉，三个小时。

好爽啊！！虽然有点疏远了，但还是吃得满爽的。。

看着他们个个谈得有多豪气，就有多豪气，哈哈，原来我们都没什么变。。

唯一变得最多的是他们的手机。。全都变得很高科技了！！

看来我应该再努力增广我的朋友圈子，怎么我觉得我不怎么会说话了？？

今天驾车回家又想到你，放心啦，我会努力读完这四年书的。。你也要加油哦！！

200days..

200 days..

somehow i wish i can study for my final like wat i did be4 my stpm... a single msg that can give me lots of supprts..but now the msg gone..maybe both of us ad forget, the moment we share together, the moment we just keep silence, the moment everything changed...

somehow i just can understand the feeling u told me when u cant study at all. i guess i know it right now..somehow i know the image in front of the mirrow..somehow i can read the mind thro ur eyes.. and somehow, i dun have the chances to do it anymore..

i wish all my wishes will come true one day.. i wish everyone will has smiling face hanging there.. i wish non of us are selfish.. i wish i can do the best in my life.. i wish i wont regret of what im doing right now.. i wish everytime i receive ur msg, it will cheer me up.. i wish ...

200 days gone.. i wish i can still be myself.. and wish both of us will stay without pain..


angel with broken heart is trying to fly..

unknown

When she doesn't call you
[ Its because she's waiting for you tocall her]

When she walks away from you mad
[ Follow her ]

When she push you or hits you
[ Grab her and don't let go ]

When she starts cussing at you
[ Kiss her and tell her you love heror a kiss and A shut up works also]

When shes quiet
[ Ask her whats wrong/Or mess withher. ]

When she ignores you
[ Give her your attention ]

When she pulls away
[ Pull her back ]

When you see her at my worst
[ Tell her shes beautiful ]

When you see her start crying
[ Hold her and tell her everythingwill be alright ]

When you see her walking
[ Sneak up and hug her waist frombehind ]

When she's scared
[ Protect her ]

When she lays her head on your shoulder
[ Tilt her head up and kiss her ]

When she teases you
[ Tease her back and make her laugh ]

When she doesn't answer for a long time
[ reassure her that everything isokay ]

When she looks at you with doubt
[ Back yourself up ]

When she says that she like you
[ she really does more than you couldunderstand ]

When she grab at your hands
[ Hold hers and play with her fingers ]

When she bumps into you
[ bump into her back and make herlaugh ]

When she tells you a secret
[ keep it safe and untold ]

When she look at you in your eyes
[ don't look away until she does ]

When she misses you
[ shes hurting inside ]

When you break her heart,the pain never really goes away

When she say its over
[ she still wants you to be hers ]

-its kinda true, believe it or not?-

ps:宝贝，那感觉要消失了，我快要抓不紧了，该怎么办？

牛郎织女

有听过牛郎织女的故事吗？我本人不见得很清楚这故事的来龙去脉，隐隐约约只知道，织女为了牛郎，宁愿被贬为凡人。然后又不知道怎么的，织女重回天堂，一年就只有那么一天能和牛郎相遇。是比干从中破坏吗？是喜鹊误了好事？还是织女和牛郎之间早已存在了误会？突然间对这故事很感兴趣，是因为星河频道正播着这部戏？是因为郭羡妮、温兆伦、唐宁、欧锦棠的演技了得？还是觉得这牛郎和织女好可怜？我想，牛郎每天看天上的星星，看得颈都要断掉了；而织女每天低头看凡间，看得自己都变得驼背了。怎么要这样来折磨自己？最近在报章有提到在中国，牛郎织女这民间故事将不会被灌输进教学内，为的就是不让还在小学求学的同志们过早接触爱情。牛郎织女歌颂着自由爱情主义。自由爱情主义是正确的，这完全是门当户对的敌人。试问，两个相爱的人就一定是门当户对吗？要和门当户对的人相守一生才会幸福吗？不对啊！王母娘娘会用俗人的眼光看待牛郎织女，凡人也会用异行来对待织女；但这有影响他们之间的情义吗？没有啊！这就说明了，在一段感情上，外界的压力根本就不是爱情的绊脚石，而真正导致爱情被画上休止符的是自己。你自己是神，可以为自己的生活画上美丽的色彩；你自己是魔，可以让自己的生活处在黑暗中。世上每件事都是相对的，你也可以说是上每件事都是矛盾的。你可以说你爱她，你恨她，这是相对，也是一种矛盾。你可以说你想约他，是因为你想见他，同时见你也说，你不想约他，是因为你不知道他会不会拒绝你，是因为你不知道要和他说什么。这又是另一种矛盾。矛盾来自哪里？自己的心。如果你的心一直都是矛盾的，那你该怎么办？你的心十五十六，又该怎么办？管不了你的心，那就努力管好你的脑。头脑想的，永远都是理性的。当你被感性牵着鼻子走，就会懂得理性的好。

怎么说牛郎织女的故事会说到理性和感性？好啦，回去那民间传谣吧。也许那只是个传谣，但当一个传谣可以在民间立上几千年的足，那就好比一个历史事件，经过时间的催化也不会逝世。当人们愿意去接受一件事时，那件事的存在性质已经不必去检讨了。而需要被顾虑的是事情的影响力。

突然间觉得如果我是织女也不错，虽然一年就只有那么一次机会和牛郎见面，我已满意了。但我是织女吗？不是啊！所以我不满意。

ps:愿九月的宝宝生日快乐

不能说的秘密

终于回到家了。今天一早起身就觉得怪怪的，阳光怎么会射进我房间？一张开眼睛才发现，我真的回到家了。昨天我很早就睡了，为的就是不让自己有多余的时间去胡思乱想。八月三十日对我来说是个很有纪念性的日子。两年前的那天，应该是我十七年来拿过最多勇气去做一件事的一天。好多的秘密都不能说，我不能说为何那天会有那么大的勇气，我不能说我那天说的话真实性有多高，我不能说为何我会有那样的决定，我不能说我那天的感觉是怎样。。。

我浪费了整天的时间，让自己掉进了回忆里。回忆起以前的中学日子如何度过，回忆起以前怎样和朋友们疯狂度过青涩的岁月，回忆起我们怎么认识，回忆起我们怎么度过每年的重大日子，回忆起我们甜蜜的岁月，也回忆起那令人痛撤心扉的日子。突然间觉得集在天上的星星慢慢地分散了，就像我们的距离，慢慢地疏远了。人说，“只要两颗心是连在一起的，那么，再远的距离也就不算是距离了。”就因为这句话，我们的距离又远了一尺。

好久没有看到你们了，距离会否让我们之间的感情被遗忘？怎么海滩上的脚印只剩下我一个人的？怎么只剩下我一个人在独唱情歌？怎么坐在车里的也只有我一个人？突然间好期待收到你们的短讯，告诉我你们回来了，回来告诉我，其实我们都没有被遗忘，你一直住在我心里。没有讯息不代表把你遗忘了，只是想让你有更大的空间去看这世界。

谢谢你朋友，谢谢你把喜怒哀乐都渗入我的记忆里。

这是个不能说的秘密，说出来，流泪的会是我。。。

gambateh!!

The time to become a prison in UPM finally comes to a small break.. i finally can go back to subang this coming thursday, which is TOMORROW!!! It's seems like a very excited moment for almost all my friends. Some of them had never back to their kampung since they become the prison.. im a bit lucky, went back twice before..=D

ps: gambateh babe!!

MGM 2111--> mehan

mehan is my management lecturer, a very very rich, n yet successful ppl, which is just 40++ years old..

this morning he talked bout something regarding the goal to achieve in life. n he told us that during his third year in USM, somebody told him to make a list of wat he wan to achieve in life, n he used the whole sem break to think about it. myabe some will write about all those material things, but mehan dont.. n he listed about 125 things in a note book..now, wat he have to do is just cancel things that ad achieved..

somehow feel that im still a small small girl, with no knowledge, with no sense of the issues surrounded..today mehan asked us to think bout our goal in life. i just suddenly stun..huh, goal?? besides all those short-term goal, i really cannot think of others...=.=

sometimes feel like the characteristic in mehan is the characteristic of my "mr right". A guy which care bout his family (his wife and his mother), a guy who very success in his career, a guy who care about society issues,a guy who wont consider much when doing charity, a guy who always agree with his wife, no matter how unpredictable his wife is. mehan just told us a stody about his wife. Last Sunday (yesterday), mrs mehan asked mehan to bring her to shopping at lorenzo.. so, they went to lorenzo n she said she wan to buy a dining table and a coffee table which all together cost RM 18,500!!! mehan then asked her," how bout the ori dining table and coffee table in the house??" then the answer was," then u have to think yourself..."=.="...okie, fine for mehan. after lorenzo, they went to ikea. again, " this mirrow is nice, can we buy it??"( which is some kind of decoration mirrow) .the mirrow cost RM 499 per piece.. mehan din consider much since his wife asked like that, then he bought 2 piece of mirrow, no delivery, have to take back by himself. on the way to the parking lot,a very funny question came out.." mehan, where should we put this two mirrows??" " dear, i thought you got the idea ad??" " no, its u buy it, i din ask you to buy, i just recommended only.." "....." "mehan, then you think about it la.." ".....ok..." then until now, the mirrows still in the living room. mehan said, if he has decided where to put the mirrow, then his wife will still asking," why you wan to put there, i dun think its nice... think about other places..." =.=" mehan said," wat to do, his mother and his wife r always in the first place.."... kesiannya..

University Life

long time din post anything here.. just bust adapt myself to the university life.. so, intro first, i study Bachelor Science (Food Study) PG17, in UPM, Serdang. This is the first time i post thing in UPM!

today not in the good mood.. dunno why,i think maybe its because i got a sad dream yesterday..k, today is my dear weiyao bday, here to great him HAPPY BIRTHDAY first..

My University life is full with assignment.. how come last time senior told me that university life is full with fun!! izzit???? i in doubt...

last time i started this blog, the purpose is to write all happy stuff here de... but dunno since when, i started to express myself here.. moodless will find blogger, sad will find blogger..who know me the best?? blogger....

1st of July i went to UPM. went back to home 2 times only..

i ad sit for 3 papers, which is SAK3002( computer), FSM3001(food) and ACT2112(account).. i found out that in university, i no longer say the subject name, but always use the code..this one is quite different from secondary..the account still okie, cause just 10 MCQ, but turn to SAK, i ad wan to cry liao.. haizzz... just now morning sit for FSM,3 essay questions, haizzz...

one month here i ad finished 2 SAK assignment, 2 FSM presentation, 2 MGM(management) assignment, 1 ACT assignment, 1 SKP 2101( kenegaraan) presentation. luckily the SKP 2203( tamadun islam) assignment no need to do so fast... everyday like busy with all those things... haizzz... still got exam... next week got badminton competition,wasting my time still...... haizzz......

another thing very different one, at home, i bathe just for max 30 minutes, now, min 1 hour... OMG! wasting my time washing all the clothes... haizz...my hand no longer smooth liao..=(

lastly, gambateh to all my friends and me myself ba..

2DAYS 1NIGHT KUKUP ISLAND

the first place visited

with sooteng, 2-in-1 bee

the most funny couple teacher

youngest teacher at pulau kukup

second destination-->mangrove forest

again, with them at mangrove forest..

me n sooteng again, on the fish boat

the last destination--> malacca, took with police!!

Happy birthday to my sisters!!!

ya, 15th of may was my big sister bday n the day be4 i post this post with is 22nd of may was my second sister bday.. HAPPY BIRTHDAY to both of them!!

on 14th of may, my second sister n i got a mission to do --> give surprise to my big sister, which "ordered" by her bf since he works in penang.. so, on that day , both of us go n search around the subang new village to buy ROSES n tell them to deliver to my big sister's office on 15th.. guess wats the price for 9 roses???? it costs RM60 ( included delivery)!!! so so so expensive!!!!












on15th, after my sister came back from her office, me n my second sister like pretend to be surprised.. "waaaa, jeje, who give u flowers de???? " n my big sister was so happy, because she said this is the first time her company received flowers!! hahaha... after a bit chit chating with my big sister, my second sister accidentely split out the words.. "cheeyao (my sis's bf) told u that he 'ordered' us to buy flowers to u,izzit?"...OMG...felt quite paiseh buying roses to my sister...=.=
after that, came to our present to my big sister.. a hamper from yu yan san.. n till now, she din realize that actually the present is 借花敬佛 one.. in the afternoon of 22th, a salesman came to my mom's office n gave her the hamper cause my mom help him to get lots of commision.. hahaha..

-happy birthday-

spiderman

today is a beautiful day,with the comfortable sunlight during the morning, with the pretty mood..

ya,today went to watch spiderman3 at cineleisure, near the curve there... so, woke up at 8am to prepare myself.( u know la, girls need lot of time de ma..) so, at about 9am, i finished eating breakfast, "setting" my hair, choose the most comfortable clothes ( baby T n a skirt), the most relaxing shoes( a pair of not-very high-heel shoes), a pair of "fish-bone" earings n also wash my bedclothes..i tried to be fast liao de la...so,sooteng will come to my house at 9.30am. now only 9.00am, still got time to read newspaper, play sudoku..so,9.30am, i called sooteng, she said she is on the way coming. 9.40am, she asked me how to go my house. 9.50am,finally she reached my house.. walau, subang go subang also need 20minutes!!!! yao mou!!! okie la,after that, we go choywan's house fetch her,since she had no car to my house..finally we leave subang at 9.55am.. walau, the fastest to the curve need about 15 minutes... damm, i will be late liao..

traffice jam due to the traffic light make me reached cineleisure at 10.30am.. walau.. this is the first time i went to the curve there needs 30minutes leh.. haizzz... sorry to joel, lian n doreen,cause they wait for us for about 30minutes ad... really sorry bout that...so, the ppl who watch spiderman3 was me, choywan, sooteng, zhixin, weiliang, joel,lian n doreen.. 8ppl, seperated into two rows.. the movie is quite nice for me, i think i will give it 70marks ( the highest still "perhaps love" with 85marks)..ahhaha.. the most memorable dialogue for me i think is the MJ tell Pete " i am alone, u r not there for me". a simply sentence touches my heart, nose get red, eyes get blur...

after the movie, zhixin n weiliang had to go back earlier.. so, the rest of us went shoppping a abit in the curve since me n joel wanna buy present to mother ( tomorrow mother's day la).. joel bought a necklace to his mom, i bought a watch... hahaah... lian also bought something, but not for his mom, for another girl with is important to him..( u know la).. hahahaaa.. after buying all those present, its ad 2.30pm.. haizz, late again.. cause have to meet weiyao n jiawen n ss2 at 2.30pm..haizzz... sorry to both of them, have to wait for us there..

so,finally reached ss2 KFC at 3.00pm due to some "accident"..walau, wen changes a lot liao, coloured her hair in RED colour!!! ahahha, our "sportwoman" become very "in" liao... yeahyeah!! the most happy moment coming, wen said i look younger n prettier ad!!! doreen n joel also said so!!!! ( hope they din tipu me la, tipu also dun let me know ar...)hahahaha...wat can i say?? i LOVE my new hairstyle..^^

so, we go somewhere in ss2 yamcha (really cannot remember the name), a place where a lot of dessert to eat... ( unfortunately din take photo =(...) so, we start talk n talk lo.. wen will go to Scotland next year,so fast!!! after bla bla things, we decided to go back home, since doreen has to go to church, jiawen also have to go subang jaya... so, "pitt",balik rumah!

today very happy leh.. rupa-rupanya, i quite lenglui also.. haahahah... =.="

傻

原来我还是那么的傻..不知道自己在等什么...不知道自己要什么...不知道自己为什么已经累得要命却还撑着不要睡觉..不知道为什么明明好像有很多话要对你说但又说不出口，手指好像僵硬似的..其实我等这天已经很久了，我以为我选择不要等了，我以为就算被我等到也没有什么好紧张的..原来我还是那么的固执..原来我还是那么的任性..

真得很久很久没有和你聊天了，时间仿佛在我们的心上建了一堵墙，一堵自我保护的墙, 彼此再也跨越不了了...

谢谢你的玫瑰，那看不到的玫瑰，可是你唯一送过我的花...

rebonding again??

ya, finally cut my hair ad.. the rebonding effect no longer there liao..all back to normal ad.. natural curly again..maybe will go n do rebonding again...should i??

last time when i did rebonding was on 27th dec 2005.. hehehe...see,my memory still very strong.. hahaha.. until today i went to cut my hair, the rebonding effect still there...RM150 really worth...^^ after cutting my hair, feel very light ad.. hahaaha... i like the feeling...!!^^

today is my first time cook prawn... walau... i thought very easy one leh..but i overcooked the prawn ad,so the prawn became very hard, but the taste is quite okie..next time will cook better de... hehehehehe...

笑

笑，能化解尴尬的场面；笑，能让冷清的场面顿然有了生气；笑，能让人与人之间的距离缩短；笑，能让人们看见开心的来源；笑，能使人忘了当时的痛苦；笑，能掩饰人的内心处；笑，能让人们找回童年的单纯；笑，就是那么简单，只要嘴角往上扬，再努力一些让它再往上扬，你就会明白，原来，最简单的笑，是没有烦恼的存在的。

我笑了，我真的笑了。

19 ways to win a girls heart

1. Hugs from behind.

2. Grab her hand when you walknext to each other (don't make hergrab yours).

3. When standing, wrap your armsaround her.

4. Cuddle with her.

5. DON'T FORCE HER TO DO ANYTHING!!!!

6. Write little notes.

7. Compliment her Honestly.

8. When you hug her, hold her in your arms as long as possible.

9.Be super sweet to her.

10. Call her at night to wish her sweet dreams.

11. Comfort her when she cries.

12.Wipe away her tears

13. Love her with all your heart.

14. Pick her up and flirt withher (she'll scream and say put medown, but really she loves it).

15. Be a gentleman (hold thedoor for her).

16.Don't let your friends talktrash about her, it'll get back to her! & DON'T ever act differently
in front of your friends than you do when its just you and her!!!!

17. Take her for a long walk at night!

18. Always bring a blanket whereever you go outside when its cold to comfort her and hold her close

19. NEVER LIE TO HER!!!!!!because then she will think everything you ever said to her was a lie,even "i love you"

剪发

我很笨啊！！！原来电脑有得type华语字的...而且还很好type呢！！..比之前那个chinese star 好很多咯！！

很久没有写部落格了.. 也不知道有什么好写的... 只知道最近很忙很忙...是故意让自己那么忙,还是为了让脑袋不会胡思乱想?忙归忙,总有一些时候会很得空的..比如说,吃饭啦,头脑又开始想东西了... 上厕所啦,又开始发呆...临睡前,又会情不自禁地掉入回忆里...有回忆是一件好事,但是让回忆绑住自己却是天大的笨事...而我这个笨蛋又在那边做笨事...

刚才收拾那充满回忆的抽屉..里边真的有很多我很想忘记的记忆..以前的人说的“睹物思人”,我想,我总算明白那感觉吧..每一张纸写的每一字,每一个笔划,我都记得那么的深刻...原来,放下并不是一天两天能做到的事,也不是一两个星期能办得到的事..那,一两个月呢???

我很想剪头发... 很久很久以前,我曾经说过..每次要忘记一个人,就要很有勇气去剪头发..也不知道从几时开始,头发就越留越长了..而这一次,是留过最长的一次..差不多到腰了...是时候剪了...

finally .. the day is coming,..

so,finally the day is coming... my results is 1A,2B+, n 1B.. the results not very good, not very bad lo.. okok only.. so, after that, i went to midvally with friends... not much to write for this time, cause of some personal problem..mmm.. im now single n available.. but dun think will have another relationship for few months later...

just now went yamcha with lian, joel, n weiyao...hmm... to celebrate the break-up n the results... cant believe i cried from weiyao's house until my house.. n finally i heard the song, the song used to be our song...its hard to let it go...but i know i can make it..i know i can.. althought it needs few thousand or hundred thousand of tears...

believe in urself.. u r not that weak..

THE 3DAYS 2NIGHTS MALACCA TRIP

walau.. tomorrow stpm results come out lo... very nervous now lo.. pa pa... cant sleep ad... okok.. back to the malacca trip first.. ya, i just came back from malacca, a trip with szehui,choywan, shumei, kokwai, wenglian, joel, jason kim, n lion king..

first day--

doing housework at szehui's malacca's house

first day--

at a-famosa water park

second day--

at old old church

second day--

at the roadside

third day--

at the zoo melaka

CNY

tomorrow will be the last day of the celebration of chinese new year.. so fast 15 days gone.. still remember on the first day i went to one u with my sister n watched the movie"twin mission".. n for your information, on the first day of chinese new year, i have to become herbivour.. no chicken,no fist, no meat,no onion,no eggs... so, me n sis were so worry bout our lunch.. finally, do u know wat we ate??? popcorn n french fries...=.="
the second day, i went to my grandma house..just suddenly i think of one question, why we always say grandma house, n not grandpa house de???errr... dun care first la.. this year like dun have the mood to celebrate liao...maybe big big enough,not so happy like when i was a little child..
the third day, i went to pyramid with my sis again.. n went to take the cute cute photo (da tou tie).. this is the first time i took such photo.. hahahaha..last time somebody told me, really dunno who is he/she liao.. saying, me n beh should take this kind of photo together ma.. really keh?? but i dun think i will have the chance lo...n also, that day watched "norbit".. hahaha..
the forth day, i went to sing k with many many friends at galaxy,seksyen 15.. hahaha.. after that we had our lunch at sunway,having steamboat, n after that we went to cheekin's house at kinrara...walau.. that day really very tired...thanks carkin for fetching me home everytime when we went out..
the fifth day, i went to yeye's house.. dun be so surprise, this yeye is not my grandpa, he is just my yeye..=.=" ekjon's mother can cook very very very well!!!!!! i like the spaghetti very much!!!! n after visited ekjon's house, me,choywan,sooteng,peckyee,szehui,jingwen,siuyean, beh,lian, n joel went to pyramid n have dinner at mahantten fish market.. super yummy the meal there...haha.. that was the second time i drive to shopping centre.. hehehe...
on the sixth day, my sis asked me to go pyramid again.. so, since i got nothing to do, i just teman her lo.... after shopping, we went to mahantten fish market to have lunch!!! walau... still very yummy the seafood there...just think only, the saliva ad almost come out..so, that day i bought one green colour shirt only.. hahaha...
finally can have a rest on the seventh day.. that day was everyboday birthday according to chinese la.. hahahaha... n that day my wish came true, as my wish was " i hope i can sleep as long as i wan.." that day i forgot wat time i woke up liao, i just know that when i woke up, i ate lunch ad... then at night, i went to my aunt's house... then we talked to have a family's trip at the end of the year... hahahahaha... n im one of the organizers... dunno this trip can be success or not.. hehehehe...
on the eighth day,i rest at home as i have to work tomorrow... sobsob... so fast one week holiday gone..
the nineth day, i went to work from 8.30am till 12.30pm.. after that, carkin called me again to have lunch together with oiyin... (he called me at dunno wat day to watch protege at one u).. walau... then me n 2nd sis went to have Mc with them... n they planned to have lunch tomorrow together... hahahahahaa... i think carkin really very sien,everyday also call us out... of course la, i know he needs friends at this moment...
so, the tenth day, i started working as teacher again.. ahahhaahah... have to wake up early liao... sob sob...
until today, the fourteenth day... went to lian's house n gamble at his house.. hahahahaha.. after that, we went to bought a birthday cake for szehui..( my dearest szehui's birthday is one 3 of march)... then, they came to my house n gamble again... hahahaha... luckily my lovely weiyao helped me to win RM10... if not, sure i will lose a lot.. hahahahaahahha...okie, n now, i have to prepare myself to go for a dinner!!!! very very busy man....
tomorrow is fifteen, which is chinese valentine's day... hahaha... sob sob.. still nobody invite me.. hahahahahaha... of course la.. i ad booked by my sis to attend her convo..(but i dun think i will go..)... hahahahaha...
HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR!!!!!!!

primary school gathering!!! 6M 1999!!!

walau.... yesterday, 10th of feb, at choong foong restaurant, 6M 1999 gathering!! hahaha.. long time din see my old old frens ad.. most of them din change much, just some get married, so become father n mother ad, so gave us name card liao... hahaha..n many became teacher... me la,sooteng la, choywan la, n sookman also.. hahaha..yesterday kenggai until about 12am.. walau..cheekaan can sing very well!! cheekin become very lengzai!!! waikeat n weifong become like kongsi gelap!!! kar kian working in salon!! pui er n wailoon, cheeliang n foongling become couples!!!shi hui drink half botol of wine( with 18% alcohol) without adding any ice cube or plain water but still din drunk!!! oi yin become Great Eastern Authorised Agent!!! wei hong( alvis) become e-Power International Corp Business Development Consultant!!!..walau... they all very very geng leh... compared with me ar, feel like im still very beh, still a student waiting to go in to university... sob sob..

back from sabah!!

finally back from sabah.. from a memorable,enjoyable class trip.. from a journey with laugh n tears...

siawwae, me n chi at jetty to manukan island

me at Monsopiad Cultural Village

having buffet at Sutera Sanctuary Lodges,Manukan Island

joel, teng, n me in air asia

HAPPY NEW YEAR 2007!

yeah! today is first of january...!!!2007 year ad, haha.. im still 18 years old... hahahaha... last year received two christmas presents--> an ornament from choywan n a "crayon small new" aka "la bi xiao xin" from weiyao.. thanks u guys...

yesterday din go for countdown.. i slept early, about 11pm.. but then many ppl sms me at around 11.30 till 2.00am.. haha.. thanks u guys for all those lovely message..muaksss..

haha... today is allan sia birthday!!! hahaha.... the oldest boy born in 1988...happy birthday to him too....

on third of january i will start working.. haha... work as primary school teacher.. hahahaha...become my teacher's colleague.. haha.. soo teng also one of my colleague.. haha...

new year got new hope.. but my hope for every year is the same..haha..then no longer new hope.. haha..

~HAPPY NEW YEAR 2007~