Wednesday, December 06, 2006

simple the best // single the best

yeahyeah.. finally finished my stpm!!!!!!!!!! but then not happy.. haizzz... the paper is super hard.. really hard.. compared to school one, its really terrible.. haizzzz.. thought can get A for chemistry de.. but then now.. dunno whether can get a B- or not... haizzzz... sob sob...

after exam, i straight away go to mv to meet yewhon.. haha.. a very lengzai,as lengzai as yuanbing.. first very happy one.. of course la, got lengzai shopping with me ma... first i really can laugh, can smile,although im quite tired..but after having my dinner at mv,someone called me n make myself almost burst.. haizz.. disappointed! wat to do? i still have to laugh, i still have to smile... i dun wan anyone worry bout me... the feeling is terrible when the face is laughing but the heart is crying...the tear almost come out n i have to hold it, cannot let it drop...i know, I CANT CRY!!!

so, finally reached home at about 10.30pm..finally got a place to cry.. hahaha.. tomorrow still have to go sing k... so worry if my eyes look bengkak.. hahahaha...

Friday, November 24, 2006

5 more papers to go..dYinG!

i ad sit for 3 papers-- pa1,maths1 n chem1... haha..among this three paper, i think pa will be the best n chem the worst.. recently received sms from friend.she told me the answer for pa1, but im not sure whether the answer correct or not.. but i did check it.. i get 14wrong.. OMG.. my target is 10wrong only but now... haizzz...means i have to do well in my paper2 on next wednesday..but im so so so worry bout the pa2, cause i think i will just concentrate on bio2 because on that day will be 2 papers for me.. haizzz..maths1 still quite okie for me, but careless here n careless there, i think about 13marks gone... haizzz....stupid fung,so so so nervous when doing the paper... haha...until i got no time to finish all questions.. haizzz...this was the first time i cant manage to finish a paper on time..blabla..u r really disappointed..

so,everyone seems like busy study bio.. haizzz..i study till nothing can go in ad.. wat to do??bio volume 1 still okie, but the volume 2.. haizz... the reproduction n biodiversity ad make me headache..summore got the development..haaizzz.. bio paper2 on wednesday, ON WEDNESDAY!!! i dun think i can finish it all,so so so worry bout the essay part, cause normally 4 out of 6 questions will come out from volume2.. haizzz..

n also the maths2 on tuesday.. this paper, the worst part is vector.. haizzz...relative velocity!!! I LANGSUNG DUNNO HOW TO DO IT!!!! the question normally above 10 marks, haizzz... which means at least 10 marks gone..haizz...

after next wednesday.. i will be very FREE!!!!! yes! after that one more paper left, which is my chem2!!! I LOVE CHMISTRY!!!!!( compare to bio la)haha..

Sunday, November 19, 2006

nightmare is coming

tomorrow i will sit for my stpm..suddenly feel like very old liao..these few weeks actually not very stress also but i almost cry everynight,not because of worry bout my stpm,but other sister sleeps beside me, but i dun think she knows i cried beside her..everyone thinks that im happy-g0-lucky,childish,38 person,but i dun think so..who knows wat i think deep inside my heart??nobody knows.. maybe i just get used to it ad..okie la.. stop talking all these stuff..later tears come out again n sick again then cham liao la...

lately i received many sms from friends, hehe.. but i dunno who r them.. hahaha..but anyway, thanks all of them yar..

yesterday midnight,i received a call from my friend, let he/she be xxx n xxx told me one big news: xxx's friend ( which is just 19 years old) will get marry on december!! n both of us believe that it was an accident..haha..cant imagine, how can a 19 years old GIRL can become a responsible mother?? she din even know how to take care of herself..haizz..get marry because of a baby? to get marry because want a baby? shallow...!

back to here.. all the best to all my dear friends in stpm yarr!!!

-sun will shine,my friend,
wont let u cry, my dear-

Monday, October 30, 2006


this is my 4th time graduate..first time was my kindergarten; second was my primary school; third was my scondary school; n the last but not the last one was--> my form six!!!

finally graduate ad.. haha.. feel like a small kid wanna enter university next year..haha.. im still YOUNG!! this time graduate, i guarantee: no more tear!! because i believe a true friendship/relationship/bla bla ship will last forever..

here have to thank some friends...

-ekjon aka yeye-thanks for everything!! being our sixth form president, being my class monitor.
-laiwenghong- thanks for all those lame jokes..really can feel cool under the hot sun
-wenglian- thanks for being my hengdai n always listen to my story..
-joelthean- thanks for being my sailou n always bring me out to have fun..
-jingwen- thanks for ur helping during the kembara camp.. i will appreciate it forever!!
-ahbeh- thanks for teaching me whats the mean of love..
-kp chen- thanks for teaching me 1-2-5
-hanyuan aka bulat- thanks for always 38 with me..
-waixin- thanks for sending me sms almost everytime when i feel bored..
-general- thanks for chatting with me when i online although first few times i dunno who u r..

for those who din mention above, haha.. thanks for being my friends!!!!! make me laugh n have great time with u all!!!!!

Thursday, October 19, 2006


This is a very touching story, please read it slowly, ....

When You Divorce Me, Carry Me Out in Your Arms

On my wedding day, I carried my wife in my arms. The bridal car stopped in front of our one-room flat. My buddies insisted that I carry her out of the car in my arms. So I carried her into our home. She was then plump and shy. I was a strong and happy bridegroom.

This was the scene ten years ago.

The following days were as simple as a cup of pure water: we had a kid; I went into business and tried to make more money. When the assets were steadily increasing, the affection between us seemed to ebb. She was a civil servant. Every morning we left home together and got home almost at the same time. Our kid was studying in a boarding school.

Our marriage life seemed to be enviably happy. But the calm life was more likely to be affected by unpredictable changes.

Dew came into my life.

It was a sunny day. I stood on a spacious balcony. Dew hugged me from behind. My heart once again was immersed in her stream of love. This was the apartment I bought for her.

Dew said, you are the kind of man who best draws girls' eyeballs. Her words suddenly reminded me of my wife. When we were just married, my wife said, Men like you, once successful, will be very attractive to girls.

Thinking of this, I became somewhat hesitant. I knew I had betrayed my wife. But I couldn't help doing so.

I moved Dew's hands aside and said you go to select some furniture, O.K.? I've got something to do in the company. Obviously she was unhappy, because I had promised to do it together with her. At the moment, the idea of divorce became clearer in my mind although it used to be something impossible to me.

However, I found it rather difficult to tell my wife about it. No matter how mildly I mentioned it to her, she would be deeply hurt.Honestly, she was a good wife. Every evening she was busy preparing dinner. I was sitting in front of the TV. The dinner was ready soon. Then we watched TV together. Or, I was lounging before the computer, visualizing Dew's body. This was the means of my entertainment.

One day I said to her in a slightly joking way, suppose we divorce, what will you do? She stared at me for a few seconds without a word. Apparently she believed that divorce was something too far away from her. I couldn't imagine how she would react once she got to know I was serious.

When my wife went to my office, Dew had just stepped out. Almost all the staff looked at my wife with a sympathetic eye and tried to hide something while talking to her. She seemed to have got some hint. She gently smiled at my subordinates. But I read some hurt in her eyes.

Once again, Dew said to me, He Ning, divorce her, O.K.? Then we live together. I nodded. I knew I could not hesitate any more.

When my wife served the last dish, I held her hand. I've got something to tell you, I said. She sat down and ate quietly. Again I observed the hurt in her eyes. Suddenly I didn't know how to open my mouth. But I had to let her know what I was thinking. I want a divorce. I raised the serious topic calmly.

She didn't seem to be annoyed by my words, instead she asked me softly, why? I'm serious. I avoided her question. This so-called answer made her angry. She threw away the chopsticks and shouted at me, you are not a man!

That night, we didn't talk to each other. She was weeping. I knew she wanted to find out what had happened to our marriage. But I could hardly give her a satisfactory answer, because my heart had gone to Dew.

With a deep sense of guilt, I drafted a divorce agreement which stated that she could own our house, our car, and 30% stake of my company. She glanced at it and then tore it into pieces. I felt a pain in my heart. The woman who had been living ten years with me would become a stranger one day. But I could not take back what I had said.

Finally she cried loudly in front of me, which was what I had expected to see. To me her cry was actually a kind of release. The idea of divorce which had obsessed me for several weeks seemed to be firmer and clearer.

Late that night, I came back home after entertaining my clients. I saw her writing something at the table. I fall asleep fast. When I woke up, I found she was still there. I turned over and was asleep again.

She brought up her divorce conditions: she didn't want anything from me, but I was supposed to give her one month s time before divorce, and in the month's time we must live as normal a life as possible. Her reason was simple: our son would finish his summer vacation a month later and she didn't want him to see our marriage was broken.

She passed me the agreement she drafted, and then asked me, He Ning, do you still remember how I entered our bridal room on the wedding day? This question suddenly brought back all those wonderful memories to me. I nodded and said, I remember. You carried me in your arms, she continued, so, I have a requirement, that is, you carry me out in your arms on the day when we divorce. From now to the end of this month, you must carry me out from the bedroom to the door every morning.

I accepted with a smile. I knew she missed those sweet days and wished to end her marriage romantically.

I told Dew about my wife s divorce conditions. She laughed loudly and thought it was absurd. No matter what tricks she does, she has to face the result of divorce, she said scornfully. Her words more or less made me feel uncomfortable.

My wife and I hadn't had any body contact since my divorce intention was explicitly expressed. We even treated each other as a stranger. So when I carried her out on the first day, we both appeared clumsy. Our son clapped behind us, daddy is holding mummy in his arms. His words brought me a sense of pain. From the bedroom to the sitting room, then to the door, I walked over ten meters with her in my arms. She closed her eyes and said softly, Let us start from today, don't tell our son. I nodded, feeling somewhat upset. I put her down outside the door. She went to wait for a bus, I drove to the office.

On the second day, both of us acted much more easily. She leaned on my chest. We were so close that I could smell the fragrance of her blouse. I realized that I hadn't looked at this intimate woman carefully for a long time. I found she was not young any more. There were some fine wrinkles on her face.

On the third day, she whispered to me, the outside garden is being demolished. Be careful when you pass there.

On the fourth day, when I lifted her up, I seemed to feel that we were still an intimate couple and I was holding my sweetheart in my arms. The visualization of Dew became vague.

On the fifth and sixth day, she kept reminding me something, such as, where she put the ironed shirts, I should be careful while cooking, etc. I nodded. The sense of intimacy was even stronger. I didn't tell Dew about this.

I felt it was easier to carry her. Perhaps the everyday workout made me stronger. I said to her, It seems not difficult to carry you now. She was picking her dresses. I was waiting to carry her out. She tried quite a few but could not find a suitable one. Then she sighed, all my dresses have grown bigger. I smiled. But I suddenly realized that it was because she was thinner that I could carry her more easily, not because I was stronger. I knew she had buried all the bitterness in her heart. Again, I felt a sense of pain. Subconsciously I reached out a hand to touch her head.

Our son came in at the moment. Dad, it's time to carry mum out. He said. To him, seeing his father carrying his mother out had been an essential part of his life. She gestured our son to come closer and hugged him tightly. I turned my face because I was afraid I would change my mind at the last minute. I held her in my arms, walking from the bedroom, through the sitting room, to the hallway. Her hand surrounded my neck softly and naturally. I held her body tightly, as if we came back to our wedding day. But her much lighter weight made me sad.

On the last day, when I held her in my arms I could hardly move a step. Our son had gone to school. She said, actually I hope you will hold me in your arms until we are old.

I held her tightly and said, both you and I didn't notice that our life lacked intimacy.

I jumped out of the car swiftly without locking the door. I was afraid any delay would make me change my decision. I walked upstairs. Dew opened the door. I said to her, Sorry, Dew, I won't divorce. I'm serious.

She looked at me, astonished. The she touched my forehead. You got no fever. She said. I moved her hand off my head. Sorry, Dew, I said, I can only say sorry to you, I won't divorce. My marriage life was boring probably because she and I didn't value the details of life, not because we didn't love each other any more. Now I understand that since I carried her into the home, she gave birth to our child, I am supposed to hold her until I am old. So I have to say sorry to you.

Dew seemed to suddenly wake up. She gave me a loud slap and then slammed the door and burst into tears. I walked downstairs and drove to the office.

When I passed the floral shop on the way, I ordered a bouquet for my wife which was her favorite. The salesgirl asked me what to write on the card. I smiled and wrote, I'll carry you out every morning until we are old.

Saturday, October 07, 2006

Happy Mooncake Festival!!

6th of October (yesterday) was one year once mooncake festival a.k.a mid-autumn festival or lantern festival.. its really called lantern day kah?? i thought lantern festival is "yuan xiao jie"? but then is okie la..

so.. as usual.. weiyao called me to gather all 5S6/2004 to celebrate this festival on 4th of Oct.. so, i started to call all classmates..but unfortunately..shae ree n hao wen are in UK, l.weiling n friends din reply... wen is busy with assignment..yuxuan is not in selangor.. ingswan n beeling not free..bla bla bla... so finally.. the ppl who can attend are just me, lian, joel, choywan, doreen, weiyao, zhixin,seaklee n another non-S6 ppl--> our dearest mr beh.. this is no longer a 5S6 gathering because all present are from my most likely a gang gathering.. haha..

so, lian suggested to have dinner at taman megah William..this was the first time i went there.. n also the first time went out with them at night.. also the first time fetch joel from his house.. hahaha...lian helped me n choywan order fried rice with fried crab with taste of tomyam ( dunno the exact name) .. i like the fried crab but no the rice cause i dun really like tomyam..hahaha..but the big plate of rice were finished by me,choywan n beh..haha..i can swear,if without beh, me n choywan cannot finish the big plate!!.. haha..

after buying two mookcakes, 6 of us (me n lian, joel n beh, choywan n doreen) went to zhixin house..beh n doreen drove super fast..haha.. its okie de.. im still new kaki ma..n luckily lian beside me n be my navigater..hahaha.. (nasib baik not joel)haha...beh was the first reached old town Mc n doreen lost her, lian was busy calling her.. after dropping choywan at zhixin's house, doreen went back because she got other things to, finally we reached zhixin's house at about 10.00pm.. walau.. i promised mother that i will back to home at bout 11.30pm.. hehe.. i think that is impossible..

everytime go to zhixin house, i will feel like i back to my house..hahahaha...

seaklee ad there waiting for us.. so, we started play with lantern n had a night first we went to lai weng hong's house n invited him to have a walk with us.. haha.. then we reached zhiheng's house n asked him to come out with us.. jason n jiaken also reached old town at that time.. so, now we have 12 persons.. we walked n walked n walked... n saw the "moon" teacher with his friends celebrating mooncake festival ( i guess la).. after night walk, we back to zhixin's house n eat the 2 mooncakes n drink sparking juice..yeah, i like the grape sparking juice!! seaklee looked like a little bit "drunk".. we kept talking nonsense until zhixin said she ad tired.. so, since the "landlady" wanted to sleep, weiyao suggested to find another place to continue.. haha.. the time was ad 12.30am..mama din call me... hehe.. i din follow them to yamcha cause its too late for me, summore i have to fetch choywan home..

after dropping choywan, i straight away drove back home.. this was the first time i drive at mid-night... scary man.. the road was very very quiet..haha.. i worried if later i saw "something"..hahahaha..finally back to home at about 1.00am..

yesterday (6th of Oct) not very tired, but really really really happy.. hahahaha..thanks all present..n Happy Mooncake Festival!!!

Wednesday, August 23, 2006


有一個人,他生前善良而且熱心助人,所以在他死後,昇上天堂,做了天使。他當了天使後,仍時常到凡間幫助人,希望能感受到幸福的味道。有一天,他遇見一個農夫,農夫的樣子非常煩惱,他向天使訴說︰「我家的水牛剛死了,沒牠幫忙犁田,那我怎能下田工作呢?」於是天使賜給他一隻健壯的水牛,農夫很高興,天使在他身上感受到幸福的味道。 又有一天,他遇見一個男人,男人非常沮喪,他向天使訴說︰「我的錢都被騙光,沒有盤纏回鄉。」於是天使送給他銀兩做路費,男人很高興,天使在他身上感受到幸福的味道。



Saturday, August 12, 2006

cute MTV

have a look...

happy birthday to me!

long time din update my blog..

recently i feel like i dun have the mood to study.. dun have the mood to talk crap.. dun have the mood to move..just like a lazy pig.. sleep n wonder im getting fatter n fatter...

16th of august is my birthday... today is already 12...joel was busy planning to celebrate me,jiawen n weiyao birthday ( three of us r born in august).. but i dun have the mood to go out n celebrate during holidays which start on 19th of august..i just hope that i can get a peaceful,simple birthday..

finally 18 years old..can go n watch all those 18PL,18SX,18 bla bla bla movie legally..

everyone seems like asking me what should they buy as my birthday present... haha.. what do i need actually..? i still consider..maybe i just want something unique..something just belongs to me...haha..

12nd of august... today is our dearest pn wong ss a.k.a. penguin 's birthday...haha.. finally pn wong 46years old!hahaha...unbelieveable.. i thought pn wong is only 40years old...!hahaha..

so... lastly... sing a birthday song to myself first ba...

happy birthday to me!
happy birthday to me!
happy birthday to meeee...
happy birthday to me!!!!!

Saturday, July 15, 2006


1。漂亮的讓我面紅的可愛女人溫柔的讓我心疼的可愛女人 聰明的讓我感動的可愛女人 壞 壞的讓我瘋狂的可愛女人
---我不漂亮,不温柔,不聪明,不坏,所以你不会脸红,不会心疼,不会感动 ,也不会疯狂。

2。從前從前有個人愛妳很久 但偏偏風漸漸把距離吹得好遠

3。已經習慣不去阻止你過好一陣子你就會回來 印象中的愛情好像 頂不住那時間

4。未接來電 沒留言 一定是你孤單的想念

5。趁時間沒發覺 讓我帶著你離開

6 。想回到過去 試著抱妳在懷裡

7。 我想就這樣牽著妳的手不放開 愛能不能夠永遠單純沒有悲哀

8。就是開不了口讓她知道 就是那麼簡單幾句我辦不到

9。 我會學著放棄你 是因為我太愛你

10。我要一步一步往上爬 在最高點乘著葉片往前飛任風乾吹流過的淚和汗 總有一天我有屬於我的天

11。我会发着呆 然后忘记你 接着紧紧闭上眼想着那一天 会有人代替 让我不再想念你

12。把永遠愛你寫進詩的結尾 你是我唯一想要的瞭解

13。我知道你的痛 是我給的承諾

14。我只能永遠讀著對白 讀著我給你的傷害 我原諒不了我就請你當作我已不在

15。有話想對你講 你眼睛卻裝忙

the day of bon odori

finally the results came out.. i got position 12 in my class..but the average is too terrible->46.25!!! OMG..chemistry 41,biology 39, maths 46, pa 59.. sigh..poor result..

bon odori will be held on tonight, but i refuse to go..the reason are i feel not comfortable + too many homeworks + too many things i want to study + i dun have to mood to go..

yesterday saw siewying at school, n she told me that she will continue her studies in singapore..everyone seems like fly here n there already, but im still at the starting point..

Sunday, July 09, 2006

the day after orientation

yeah! finally everything back to normal.. no more sixth form orientation, no more girl guide orientation.. no more sushi buffet, no more jenayah's AGM...

muscle pain after the sixth form orientation.. pity my foot because they been stepped during the orientation..nothing much to do after the orientation, except i have to rush as i have a date with sooteng they all.. so, the orientation ended at 4.15pm n i reached home at 5.05pm.. i have to meet sooteng at bus stop which not really near my house (about 5km from my house) at, i was in rush n everytime i m in rush, i will surely forget to do something.. n yeap, this time i forgot to bring my identity card... hahaha..

the muet result will come out soon... scary man...

Sunday, July 02, 2006

50th anniversary + tearful week

CHS finally 50 years brother told me that when he was in form one, the school is just 40 years old..time waits for no one..n i already 17 years old (walau.. still underage!)

the day before the anniversary i online n saw weiyao there.. both of us support argentina but germany won..haha, i support england but she lost; i support brazil but french won.. next time i should support the opposite team..weiyao said he will go to school tomorrow, with jiawen.. seems like long time din see jiawen but actually we just had lunch n dinner together half month ago.. here, have to thank weiyao always online n chat with me.. THANK U!! something really interupt my mind these few days n he is the one who know it..maybe i just have to give myself more time..

50the anniversary.. i saw many many friends there.. weiyao, jiawen, ruiwen, kayin, wendy, weishin, chityang, soo fan, soo heng, puiyin, sukhui, mengyip,chukli, etvon, vict ci bla bla bla.. long time din see victci, he is more yengzai than last time..haha..!

suddenly something come across my mind : 如果有一天我離開了你﹐你會為我掉一滴眼淚嗎?
i keep telling myself dun think all those stupid + idiot things..its already the second week,i already felt very down for 2 weeks..,but who cares?

thanks beh for giving me the candy,although it just cheer me up for 3 hours..

Friday, June 30, 2006

my personality?

outgoing personality.
takes risks.
feeds on attention.
no self control.
kind hearted.
self confident.
loud and boisterous.
VERY revengeful.
easy to get along with and talk to.
has an "every thing's peachy" attitude.
likes talking and singing. loves music.
daydreamer. easily distracted.
Hates not being trusted.
BIG imagination.
loves to be loved.
hates studying.
in need of "that someone".
longs for freedom.
rebellious when withheld or restricted.
lives by "no pain no gain" caring.
always a suspect. playful.
"charming" or "beautiful" to everyone.
stubborn. curious. independent. strong willed. a fighter.

Sunday, June 25, 2006

a busy + moodless week

many people asked me why i did not update my blog recently. haha.. it's just because im too too too busy n moodless in this whole week..

monday (19/06/06)

my little brother ( form4 student) din go to school as usual..i felt nothing because i just get used of it already, but my mom not.. so,world war 3 began..n as usual,i did my role--> to become a middle girl to cold them down..this war lasted for an hour ONLY n continued with cold elder brother brought my little brother out to watch movie.. n that was the time my mom talked to me..what can i do besides being her hearer? so, i spent about another one hour to listen to my mom's grievance..haizzz, sometimes i know i should spend more time with my mom but i just cant make it..haizz..i think i gave enough patient to listen to what my mom told me although at first i though i can use that time to do my homeworks..what to do? family is much more important than my study..

tuesday (20/06/06)

so surprised when i saw my little brother stand by to go to school is a rainny day, n i din bring umbrella to school.. i walked in the rain to school n felt not comfortable after was very very cold n so, i " stole" my lingdar -->ngaiwei's jacket.. cant imagine i really shivered at that time..thanks choywan for giving me her concern.. i only left school at about 2pm because i have to finish my chemistry experiment..when i reached my mom's office, it was already 2.45pm.. my little brother did not wait for me to fetch him grandma told me that my little brother just walked back home 5 minutes before i, after having my lunch, i drove back home.. my little brother already at home, played computer games when i reached.. n he looked like very angry with me because i din tell him that i will came back late today.. this was my fault because i told him i will fetch him home at usual time in this morning but i failed to do it due to the unpredictable reason..haizzz..

wednesday (21/06/06)

today yewhon said he will come to school to find me,choywan,szehui n others to have lunch.. yeah! long time din see this lengzai..during the lunch,yewhon, choywan n me talked n talked n talked until 2.30pm.. all his "lame jokes" make choywan n me laugh till non-stop..the day getting darker n darker when we reached school..n so, choywan n me decided to stay in our classroom to do maths homework n watched PROSTAR's drama..the other reason i dun want to go back is because im too tired to face with my little brother n also my mom..haizzz...maybe i just needed some fresh air to breath..

thursday (22/06/06)

as usual, my little brother din go to school..haizzz.. my mom started talking to me when i reached her office.. i tried to give her full concentration but i cant because im too tired.. luckily at that time my aunt came n i can drove back home.. n finally i had the time to finish my the night,around 8.30pm, i thought i can continue with my biology but once again, my house is visited by my mom's friends... haizzzz...what to do? i can only study biology in a very silent,quite environment.. (silent here means no any voices at all).. so, i decided to sleep at that time.. i cant get angry with my mom because she needs friends also..haizzz...nothing to do on the bed.. i decided to sms beh n again, no reply..haizzz..

friday (23/06/06)

finally reached to last school day in this was gotong-royong day.. n i was placed to clean staff room..after school, i had girlguide meeting at U6A classroom.. we r taught to sing the girlguide's song.. one english n one malay..after that, jingwen,yeesing n me went to amcorp mall to have our lunch..this is the first time i went out with jingwen..we had our lunch at Mc n we talked n talked n talked until 3.00pm.. jingwen had to go back to school at 3.15pm.. after bought some sweet n chocolate to mortals, jingwen n me walked back school n yeesing walked to LRT station.. when we reached school, jingwen's father already there waiting for her.. so, both of us rushed back to classroom to take our bag.. at that time, jingwen n me saw beh n peckyee.. haha, bulat said beh always berlaku curang.. hahaha..i walked to bus stop in the rain after that..

Different between friends n boyfriend

-friends can have more that one but boyfriend can only have one.
-friends can make u laugh when u face with any problem but boyfriend will only make u smile
-friends can bring u out n sing k in a group but boyfriend wont
-friends are still friends if din keep in touch with them for a long time but boyfriend is no longer a boyfriend once they lost contact
-friends can share all ur happiness n sadness but boyfriend can only share a part of it
-friends will hug u when u need it but boyfriend wont
-friends will always be ur side but boyfriend wont
-friends will tell u their problems but boyfriend wont
-friends will call u out to yamcha but boyfriend wont
-friends will always give u a sudden call but boyfriend wont
-friends will stick with u but boyfriend wont

-boyfriend will be able to see ur tear but friends wont
-boyfriend will overprotect u but friends will just protect u
-boyfriend will hug u when u sleep but friends wont
-boyfriend will give u a goodnight kiss but friends wont
-boyfriend will hold ur hand but only girl friends will do so
-boyfriend will give u a surprise but friends wont
-boyfriend will make u cry but friends wont
-boyfriend will make u feel sweet but friends wont
-boyfriend will call u when he feel very down but girl friends wont

Wednesday, June 14, 2006


一頓歷時89分鐘,價值274元的晚餐。一對男女戀人步出餐廳。男的吃這頓飯吃得好辛苦,因他85分鐘都用了來想著公司的那份計劃書該怎樣做,幸好女的一點也不發覺他心不在焉。女的對男的說:「現在不算太晚,你不用送我了,我自己回家吧。」明天就要交計劃書的男友,"立刻"答:「好呀!那你小心點了,回家致電給我 吧。再見。」男的飛快回家,去埋首他的工作,他不停的做直致電話響起。他看看鐘原來已經半夜三 時許,是誰這麼夜來電?他接過電話, 原來是他的未來外母:「我女兒現在還沒回家,你不 是和她去了吃飯嗎?她怎樣了,我好怕......」男的才記起女的說回到家後會致電他報 平安,但現在已經夜半二、三時她為什麼還不回家。男的心亂如麻,最後還是報警求助 。去到警局,警員問他: [ 她失蹤時的衣著是?」男的:「這...她......想不起來...」 警員:「不打緊,你先放鬆一下,那衣服的顏色總會記得吧?藍色?紅色?」 男的:「我...我只想著份計劃書,吃飯也低下頭...我不曾看過她的...」警員:「她的髮型呢'長髮'短髮'」 男的:「我跟她一起很多年了...我所以...怎麼她的東西我一點也想不起...」 警員:「你說她是你女友,你們最近很少見面嗎?怎會連髮型也不知道,那她有帶手袋嗎?」 男的也是無言以對。離開警局,男的覺得很驚訝,驚訝他對女友的"不上心"。多年來他已把愛情的感覺當成 一種 習慣,就連對他的女友也"習以為常",已經不把她放在心上了。已過了三天,女的還是音訊全無,這三天男的除了擔心女友的安危,就是不停的想:「她的髮型、她的衣著,我怎會不知道的!我一定要記起來!」
這夜,男的經過一條幽黑、灰暗的長街,竟看見女的就站在長街的盡頭。男的高興得跑向她,想緊緊的擁抱她。但走到女友的面前他就改變了主意,他雙手按著女友的肩膊,說:「等一下,先不要動。讓我看清楚你,你的頭髮、你的衣著,我要好好的記著! 回想起那晚,其實是你發現我還有工作在身,想我早點回家工作而叫我不用送你的。 一直以來只有你還關心我的感受,而我卻不理會你。 但不要緊,我已知道應怎樣去愛你、珍惜你。 相信 我,你的一切一切今後都會常在我心中的。」女的:「你終於都懂得理會我的感受,懂得珍惜我了...可惜已經太遲......」 男的忽然醒過來,原來剛才的是一場夢。 夢醒後男的努力去想,夢中女友的衣著、髮型,但還是記不起來.....
隔天,男的終於再見到他的女友,就是在警員帶他到殮房認屍的時候......望著躺在停屍間的女友,男的哭著說:「我終於知道你的髮型,衣著,我現在才 真正的看真你。我會記著的,永遠都會記著的... 我剛想到要珍惜你...你醒醒呀...不要就這樣離開我好嗎......」 男的剛學會珍惜, 卻已後悔莫及。現在他除了哭泣,就什麼都做不了......
也許你常發現我一直凝望著你!你問我看什麼呢? 我笑笑的回答....沒什麼 ,只是想將你的一切記在心裏 ,在見不到你時細細回味..........

Monday, June 12, 2006


今天是他們結婚第二年,沒有鮮花,沒有甜言蜜語,當然也不會有燭光晚餐。淑靜照往常一樣靜靜地在家等候柏正,已經十點了,他還沒有回來。這是當初她選擇他的其中原因之一,但是她萬萬沒想到,博正的處女情節會那麼深。從結婚到現在,只要淑靜拒絕柏正,柏正都會說:「又不是沒經驗,裝什麼處女。嫌我技術比妳以前的男人差?」可是淑靜想要解釋,柏正又說:「好啦!好啦!我知道啦!妳不用說了, 正妳學歷比我高,口才比我好嘛!
就這樣,淑靜過著做不能做,說不能說的婚姻生活。她好痛苦。他們平均一個月回去鄉下一次,看公婆也看小孩。小孩已經一歲了,稍微會扶著東西走路。淑靜除了逗弄小孩之外,還掃地,洗衣; 中午她把飯煮好 叫大家來吃。
小姑舀了一些蘿蔔湯起來「媽,妳今天怎麼把蘿蔔切的這麼大塊?」「那是妳二嫂煮的。」婆婆把責任推給媳婦。淑靜的大伯看到淑靜好像快哭出來,連忙說:「你們怎麼那麼笨,蘿蔔切大塊煮起來才好吃 ,妳沒看到外面的人賣蘿蔔湯都是切這樣的嗎?」淑靜看著大伯站出來替自己圓場,可是博正一句話也不說,心不禁冷了下來。


淑靜懷孕了,連續好幾天晚上電話鈴聲響,博正去接,對方都沒有出聲音,最後博正有聽到一個男人的聲音。他掛斷電話,「妳在外面交男朋友?」[你在說什麼啊?」淑靜一臉疑惑。「妳給我戴綠帽子,是不是?這肚子裡的孩子是誰的?」博正的臉上寫滿了忌妒,懷疑。[這肚子裡的孩子當然是你的,還會有誰的?」淑靜撫著肚子想保護她。「我的?妳想騙誰,男的找到這裡來了。走,去把她拿掉。走。」 拉起淑靜往外走「博正,你不要這樣好不好?就為了一通莫名其妙的電話,你就判我這種行你太不可理喻了。」淑靜甩開他的手,摸著被他拉疼的地方。我不可理喻?對,我就是不可理喻,我就是不要這個孩子,走,去拿他。」

媽媽真擔心才二十二歲的淑靜怎麼過! 未來幾十年的婚姻生活?「媽,我也不知道該怎麼辦?」她喑喑咽咽的哭起來。媽媽拍拍她的肩,「別哭,媽媽帶妳去醫院裝避孕器。既然博正不愛惜妳,妳要愛惜妳自己,知道嗎?」
今天是淑靜的忌日,博正牽著孩子來花蓮祭拜她。淑靜的媽媽正彎著腰拔著雜草,口中念念有詞的對著女兒說話。聽到一聲「媽。」她回過頭看到博正和孫子,不理會他們,繼續手上的動作,「你來這裡做什麼?你不覺得已經來不及了嗎?」博正把鮮花放在瓶子裡,因為淑靜在過世前,曾對他說:「博正,我沒有作對不起你的事, 你要相信我。萬一我死了,可以送我一對鮮花嗎?」即使是每天一束花他都願意,只要淑靜可以活過來可是已經來不及了。
「這時淑靜的媽媽從袋子裡拿出一本厚厚的書交給博正。~~我遇到那個叫博正的男孩,我! 好喜歡他………… 今天騎車和人家相撞,右腳的傷口好大,痛死了,全身酸痛,而且月經也來了,好 奇怪,才十天而已怎麼就來了?……………~~博正今天帶我去海邊玩,全身曬的紅通通的,下次要去海邊一定要記得擦防曬 油………~~昨天晚上和博正睡在一起,第一次好痛喔! 可是為什麼我沒有流血呢?奇怪,大家不是都說會流血的嗎? 博正會不會誤以為我不是處女呀?…………~~糟糕,月經已經超過一個月都沒來,怎麼辦? 會不會是懷孕了?………….~~博正聽到我懷孕了,說要娶我,我好高興,可是他是因為愛我才娶我? 還是因為肚子裡的小孩呢?……~~明天就要結婚了,我一定會好好的愛他,也會愛他的家人………淑-靜-」


若不是處女又不一定不是第一次...(可能不小心傷到)話又說回來,男人希望自己的老婆是處女,自己又喜歡在婚前多玩幾個,這不是很矛盾嗎?由此可見,男人最自私....(當然也有少部份優質男性)但願像這樣的故事,能警惕各位男士,別讓它發生在你身上...好好愛惜你身邊的她吧愛她 疼她 多照顧她這個故事我看了好多次.............它真的很感人

Sunday, June 11, 2006

pangkor first day 07/06/06

first day ( 07/06/06)
i wake up at 5.30am.. after having my breakfast, i straight away go to choywan's house.. we took bus at 6.30am n reached KL at 8.00am.. joel they all already there, having their "surprised" to see beh there.. hahaha.. he thought he can give me a surprise as he din tell me that he will join us to pangkor... hahaha.. but im too clever as i knew his plan since last week... hahaha...

after that, we walked to pudu raya.. kimkim already there waiting for us...on the way walked to pudu raya, choywan's lugguge was broken n she was so upset..she said she dun wan to go to pangkor as she feels that something will happen to her...but it is impossible to let her go back home at that moment.. so, we just continued walking...our bus(KL-Lumut bus) will depart at 8.30am BUT when we reached paltform14, the bus already surprised that the bus depart at 8.15am..this is very very weird because 99% of malaysian r not punctual.. malaysian has this bad habit n that's why many events or functions will be, what came through my mind was the bus driver is not a malaysian!! =.=" nothing much we can do at that time n kimkim went to ask the authority to solve the problem.. the authority said we can take the bus at about 10.30am n we have to wait for it...but finally, since the KL-Ipoh-Lumut bus (8.45am) has enough seats for us, we decided to take that bus..i think joel feels so sorry at that time because he is the one who did the bus transport..

at about 2.30pm, we reached Lumut..kimkim n szehui went to buy the ferry tickets,lian n joel went to buy the Lumut-KL bus about 2.45pm, we went to the ferry n took photo in the ferry...once again,choywan was so unlucky.. somebody stole her bag when we went to the back seat to take dear choywan felt to upset again.. she said she was very very very regret to go to pangkor.. there are IC, licence, keys, comb,handphone inside her bag..we found n found n found but still, we cant found her, when we reached pangkor, we took a taxi n went to police station to make a police report...i think this is the first time i go to police station..after making the police report, it is already 4.00pm.. we took taxi again to Nipah Bay Villa,a place where we stayed..

after a short break( i think it's just about half an hour),joel already making racket there... haha.. he said he wanna go to beach! all right, my childish, 6 of us agreed with him n went to beach...there were many many many people there..almost malays.. but i can still find out some lenglui wearing bikini!! hahaha...lovely figure! not like mine one.. hahaha..szehui said if she has those figure, she will also wear bikini!!!... haha... again, choywan really "hak lui", 4 guys "threw" choywan into the sea!! n now i think, choywan really really scare to approach water,especially the 4 guys beside her..haha..after that, we "buried" joel n took photo with him ... haha..after a lot of fun, we had a rest at the beach, n wait for sunset.. we had an oppotunity to took photo before the sun "drop" to the sea-surface.. thanks kimkim for teaching us to use the word "drop".. haha..

we had our dinner at 8.00pm in Nipah Bay Villa.. the food there are very spicy..n i did not eat much.. haha..just dunno why, i din feel hungry after all those fun..

after dinner, it's the time to have bathe! so, 7 people 1 toilet.. haha...szehui( our Fhilippine's maid) cannot tahan with the sand inside our room.. so, she get a broom n started sweeping the floor..lovely szehui likes our mother.. haha.. after that, we went to beach again to find " blue tear" (directly transfer from chinese)... this is the first time i see "blue tear".. really very beautiful..but unfortunately, the day cried after we saw the "blue tear".. so, what to do? we just walked back n had night activities inside the room.. we played about midnight ( about 1-2am), we all fall asleep.. haha.. this is the time i will be,i started to "kacau" beh...we talked n talked n talked until 3.30am.. haha..really feel sorry to szehui cause she can only sleep after me n beh ended our conversation... hahaha...

first day was not tired.. cause most of the time we were inside the bus... haha..

Tuesday, June 06, 2006

pangkor trip's eve

tomorrow i have to wake up at 5.45am n meet choywan at her house at 6.20am. then we will take no.9 metro bus to kota raya n walk across the road to pudu raya..the bus to lumut,perak ( i think) will depart at 8.30am, platform 14..(14 is a bad number)..based on my estimation, choywan and i will reach kota raya at 7.40am..and we can have our breakfast before we meet joel they all at 8.00am..hope everything moves smooth...

yesterday night saw beh through msn n he told me that he had found a friend to replace him since he cant go to pangkor,yet he summitted the fees already...but kimkim has made the cancellation in the, what can i do? i just get the phone number of the Nipah Bay Villa from kimkim n ask beh to call...if the authority says can cancel the cancellation, then everything will back to normal..7 persons will go to pangkor n beh wont loss any money...

today morning called beh n he said he already called the anthority there n they said the fees is unrefundable but we can use the money to have more activities..the RM130 will share by 6 of us...n beh said since number 6 is better than 7( 6 can make pairs but 7 cant), then he suggested that just 6 of us go to pangkor..n he just loss RM19 for the ticket...(sorry that i mentioned wrongly on the previous post that beh will loss RM 38 because i though joel had brought two ways tickets).. i asked him to decide himself n after that, i called lian n ask for opinion... hahaha, lian, dun speak out what i told u ar....

after all those calls, i back to my maths... omg... i still have about 5 chapters!!n the inequalities is still blur...summore the coordinate geometry n functions are the worst... all the formulae have to memorize..differentiation n integration are still okie, not much different from form5..

good luck to my dear weiyao.. today is his last paper..all the best to him!=)

okie..have to back to maths already... already online about one hour...gambateh!

Monday, June 05, 2006

pangkor trip VS stranger

ya, today is monday.. have to start packing for the pangkor trip.. errm, what should i bring? how many clothes? do i need to bring along junk food?sweet?swimming suit?toothpaste? busy thinking all these small small questions... all right, calm down first, bring 3 clothes since the trip is 3D2N.. bring junk food since everyone loves to eat.. bring sweet so that everyone can have it on the bus..bring swimming suit so that u can play enough.. bring toothpaste in case nobody bring it... okie, settle!

there is a guy called my mobile phone recently.. n his number is 0162941531.. i believe he is a malay(mlz) or foreign worker.. i choose not to answer his call n let it become a missed call.. that's why almost all the phone number in my missed call list are his number...this guy really crazy, called me at 3.00am when i was slept..and unfortunately i did not turn my phone into silent, after that night,anyone who call when i sleep,feel so sorry to them because i dun think i will know u are calling me as i had turn my phone into silent mode..

boring day

yeye called me yesterday.. guess where is he now?haha.. is penang!! he asked me which shop we brought "heong pieng" last time during 5S2 class trip... n i told him is "ying xiang".. he sounded so confused as he thought is "xing xiang"...after a bit of "arguement", i found out that actually we were talking the same shop... n i was wrong.. the word "xing" is pronounces as "xing" n i thought is "ying"... omg... my chinese is getting worse...such a simple word also can pronounce it wrongly...

today online saw kimkim... he want me to confirm the number of people who will go to pangkor island on next wednesday, thursday n friday by tomorrow night...he said maybe the fees can be refunded as beh not sure whether he can go or not..if it is refundable, beh also loss RM38 because joel has brought the bus tickets for him... if it is not refundable, beh will lost RM 168... so, for me, the best solution is beh can go to pangkor, then i will be very happy,n he also wont loss any money...but the decision is based on him, not me... hehe...

today online also saw my dear sapo (sally).. sapo said she will back to malaysia on 16 of june... n promise yar sapo, do come n visit me...tomorrow sapo has to sit for her exam, good luck to sapo yar...

today very sien...woke up at 10am,n had my breakfast at 10.30am.. continue my "appointment" with mr.chou until 1.00pm... after that, online from 2 till now...SIEN!!!

The Da Vinci Code--- Cartoon Version

to all the passagers:

turn on ur speaker...


~aNgeL iS hEre~

for all the passagers...

welcome to heaven,a place where angel stays...
welcome to heaven, u will have lots of fun here..
welcome to heaven, u will know whose ur angel is..
welcome to heaven, u can have ur dreams here..

welcome, my friends...