Friday, June 30, 2006

my personality?

outgoing personality.
takes risks.
feeds on attention.
no self control.
kind hearted.
self confident.
loud and boisterous.
VERY revengeful.
easy to get along with and talk to.
has an "every thing's peachy" attitude.
likes talking and singing. loves music.
daydreamer. easily distracted.
Hates not being trusted.
BIG imagination.
loves to be loved.
hates studying.
in need of "that someone".
longs for freedom.
rebellious when withheld or restricted.
lives by "no pain no gain" caring.
always a suspect. playful.
mysterious.
"charming" or "beautiful" to everyone.
stubborn. curious. independent. strong willed. a fighter.

Sunday, June 25, 2006

a busy + moodless week

many people asked me why i did not update my blog recently. haha.. it's just because im too too too busy n moodless in this whole week..

monday (19/06/06)

my little brother ( form4 student) din go to school as usual..i felt nothing because i just get used of it already, but my mom not.. so,world war 3 began..n as usual,i did my role--> to become a middle girl to cold them down..this war lasted for an hour ONLY n continued with cold war..my elder brother brought my little brother out to watch movie.. n that was the time my mom talked to me..what can i do besides being her hearer? so, i spent about another one hour to listen to my mom's grievance..haizzz, sometimes i know i should spend more time with my mom but i just cant make it..haizz..i think i gave enough patient to listen to what my mom told me although at first i though i can use that time to do my homeworks..what to do? family is much more important than my study..

tuesday (20/06/06)

so surprised when i saw my little brother stand by to go to school today..today is a rainny day, n i din bring umbrella to school.. i walked in the rain to school n felt not comfortable after that..it was very very cold n so, i " stole" my lingdar -->ngaiwei's jacket.. cant imagine i really shivered at that time..thanks choywan for giving me her concern.. i only left school at about 2pm because i have to finish my chemistry experiment..when i reached my mom's office, it was already 2.45pm.. my little brother did not wait for me to fetch him back..my grandma told me that my little brother just walked back home 5 minutes before i appeared..so, after having my lunch, i drove back home.. my little brother already at home, played computer games when i reached.. n he looked like very angry with me because i din tell him that i will came back late today.. this was my fault because i told him i will fetch him home at usual time in this morning but i failed to do it due to the unpredictable reason..haizzz..

wednesday (21/06/06)

today yewhon said he will come to school to find me,choywan,szehui n others to have lunch.. yeah! long time din see this lengzai..during the lunch,yewhon, choywan n me talked n talked n talked until 2.30pm.. all his "lame jokes" make choywan n me laugh till non-stop..the day getting darker n darker when we reached school..n so, choywan n me decided to stay in our classroom to do maths homework n watched PROSTAR's drama..the other reason i dun want to go back is because im too tired to face with my little brother n also my mom..haizzz...maybe i just needed some fresh air to breath..

thursday (22/06/06)

as usual, my little brother din go to school..haizzz.. my mom started talking to me when i reached her office.. i tried to give her full concentration but i cant because im too tired.. luckily at that time my aunt came n i can drove back home.. n finally i had the time to finish my homeworks..in the night,around 8.30pm, i thought i can continue with my biology but once again, my house is visited by my mom's friends... haizzzz...what to do? i can only study biology in a very silent,quite environment.. (silent here means no any voices at all).. so, i decided to sleep at that time.. i cant get angry with my mom because she needs friends also..haizzz...nothing to do on the bed.. i decided to sms beh n again, no reply..haizzz..

friday (23/06/06)

finally reached to last school day in this week..today was gotong-royong day.. n i was placed to clean staff room..after school, i had girlguide meeting at U6A classroom.. we r taught to sing the girlguide's song.. one english n one malay..after that, jingwen,yeesing n me went to amcorp mall to have our lunch..this is the first time i went out with jingwen..we had our lunch at Mc n we talked n talked n talked until 3.00pm.. jingwen had to go back to school at 3.15pm.. after bought some sweet n chocolate to mortals, jingwen n me walked back school n yeesing walked to LRT station.. when we reached school, jingwen's father already there waiting for her.. so, both of us rushed back to classroom to take our bag.. at that time, jingwen n me saw beh n peckyee.. haha, bulat said beh always berlaku curang.. hahaha..i walked to bus stop in the rain after that..

Different between friends n boyfriend

-friends can have more that one but boyfriend can only have one.
-friends can make u laugh when u face with any problem but boyfriend will only make u smile
-friends can bring u out n sing k in a group but boyfriend wont
-friends are still friends if din keep in touch with them for a long time but boyfriend is no longer a boyfriend once they lost contact
-friends can share all ur happiness n sadness but boyfriend can only share a part of it
-friends will hug u when u need it but boyfriend wont
-friends will always be ur side but boyfriend wont
-friends will tell u their problems but boyfriend wont
-friends will call u out to yamcha but boyfriend wont
-friends will always give u a sudden call but boyfriend wont
-friends will stick with u but boyfriend wont

-boyfriend will be able to see ur tear but friends wont
-boyfriend will overprotect u but friends will just protect u
-boyfriend will hug u when u sleep but friends wont
-boyfriend will give u a goodnight kiss but friends wont
-boyfriend will hold ur hand but only girl friends will do so
-boyfriend will give u a surprise but friends wont
-boyfriend will make u cry but friends wont
-boyfriend will make u feel sweet but friends wont
-boyfriend will call u when he feel very down but girl friends wont

Wednesday, June 14, 2006

*story*

一頓歷時89分鐘,價值274元的晚餐。一對男女戀人步出餐廳。男的吃這頓飯吃得好辛苦,因他85分鐘都用了來想著公司的那份計劃書該怎樣做,幸好女的一點也不發覺他心不在焉。女的對男的說:「現在不算太晚,你不用送我了,我自己回家吧。」明天就要交計劃書的男友,"立刻"答:「好呀!那你小心點了,回家致電給我 吧。再見。」男的飛快回家,去埋首他的工作,他不停的做直致電話響起。他看看鐘原來已經半夜三 時許,是誰這麼夜來電?他接過電話, 原來是他的未來外母:「我女兒現在還沒回家,你不 是和她去了吃飯嗎?她怎樣了,我好怕......」男的才記起女的說回到家後會致電他報 平安,但現在已經夜半二、三時她為什麼還不回家。男的心亂如麻,最後還是報警求助 。去到警局,警員問他: [ 她失蹤時的衣著是?」男的:「這...她......想不起來...」 警員:「不打緊,你先放鬆一下,那衣服的顏色總會記得吧?藍色?紅色?」 男的:「我...我只想著份計劃書,吃飯也低下頭...我不曾看過她的...」警員:「她的髮型呢'長髮'短髮'」 男的:「我跟她一起很多年了...我所以...怎麼她的東西我一點也想不起...」 警員:「你說她是你女友,你們最近很少見面嗎?怎會連髮型也不知道,那她有帶手袋嗎?」 男的也是無言以對。離開警局,男的覺得很驚訝,驚訝他對女友的"不上心"。多年來他已把愛情的感覺當成 一種 習慣,就連對他的女友也"習以為常",已經不把她放在心上了。已過了三天,女的還是音訊全無,這三天男的除了擔心女友的安危,就是不停的想:「她的髮型、她的衣著,我怎會不知道的!我一定要記起來!」
這夜,男的經過一條幽黑、灰暗的長街,竟看見女的就站在長街的盡頭。男的高興得跑向她,想緊緊的擁抱她。但走到女友的面前他就改變了主意,他雙手按著女友的肩膊,說:「等一下,先不要動。讓我看清楚你,你的頭髮、你的衣著,我要好好的記著! 回想起那晚,其實是你發現我還有工作在身,想我早點回家工作而叫我不用送你的。 一直以來只有你還關心我的感受,而我卻不理會你。 但不要緊,我已知道應怎樣去愛你、珍惜你。 相信 我,你的一切一切今後都會常在我心中的。」女的:「你終於都懂得理會我的感受,懂得珍惜我了...可惜已經太遲......」 男的忽然醒過來,原來剛才的是一場夢。 夢醒後男的努力去想,夢中女友的衣著、髮型,但還是記不起來.....
隔天,男的終於再見到他的女友,就是在警員帶他到殮房認屍的時候......望著躺在停屍間的女友,男的哭著說:「我終於知道你的髮型,衣著,我現在才 真正的看真你。我會記著的,永遠都會記著的... 我剛想到要珍惜你...你醒醒呀...不要就這樣離開我好嗎......」 男的剛學會珍惜, 卻已後悔莫及。現在他除了哭泣,就什麼都做不了......
也許你常發現我一直凝望著你!你問我看什麼呢? 我笑笑的回答....沒什麼 ,只是想將你的一切記在心裏 ,在見不到你時細細回味..........

Monday, June 12, 2006

*sTorY*

莫名其妙的和她上床,也糊裡糊塗的接受她.明知自己不是她第一個男人,但為了孩子,不得不娶她。就因為不是她第一個男人,他一直懷疑肚子裡的孩子真是他的嗎?孩子出世了,和他如同一轍,宛如一個模子印出來一樣,他才承認這是他的對她的疑心也隨著一句句的
~~孩子跟你好像。~~漸漸降低。
今天是他們結婚第二年,沒有鮮花,沒有甜言蜜語,當然也不會有燭光晚餐。淑靜照往常一樣靜靜地在家等候柏正,已經十點了,他還沒有回來。這是當初她選擇他的其中原因之一,但是她萬萬沒想到,博正的處女情節會那麼深。從結婚到現在,只要淑靜拒絕柏正,柏正都會說:「又不是沒經驗,裝什麼處女。嫌我技術比妳以前的男人差?」可是淑靜想要解釋,柏正又說:「好啦!好啦!我知道啦!妳不用說了, 正妳學歷比我高,口才比我好嘛!
就這樣,淑靜過著做不能做,說不能說的婚姻生活。她好痛苦。他們平均一個月回去鄉下一次,看公婆也看小孩。小孩已經一歲了,稍微會扶著東西走路。淑靜除了逗弄小孩之外,還掃地,洗衣; 中午她把飯煮好 叫大家來吃。
小姑舀了一些蘿蔔湯起來「媽,妳今天怎麼把蘿蔔切的這麼大塊?」「那是妳二嫂煮的。」婆婆把責任推給媳婦。淑靜的大伯看到淑靜好像快哭出來,連忙說:「你們怎麼那麼笨,蘿蔔切大塊煮起來才好吃 ,妳沒看到外面的人賣蘿蔔湯都是切這樣的嗎?」淑靜看著大伯站出來替自己圓場,可是博正一句話也不說,心不禁冷了下來。
過年期間,許多親戚都來到鄉下拜年,有的還會住下一,二天;淑靜坐在小板凳,看著像一座小山的衣服不禁皺起眉頭。剛剛大伯看到淑靜抱著一大桶衣服往外走,就說丟到洗衣機就好了,可是婆婆說衣服用洗衣機洗會變皺,而且這些衣服都是新的,一定要用手洗;淑靜只好把衣服抱到外面洗。迎著冷風,把手伸進冷的像冰的水,又抽離起來,搓著雙手;她咬緊牙根把衣服一件一件的在洗衣板上搓洗,當她弄好時已經是二個小時後。晚上婆婆在樓上對著公公發牢騷,「她瞎了是不是?一隻襪子也不知道要拿去洗,還把博文的衣服染成這樣。」淑靜又不是故意的,那隻襪子塞在桶子旁邊,她可能沒看到;博文的衣服就不要穿了嘛!幹嘛這樣大驚小怪的。」公公在旁幫淑靜說情。婆婆在樓上講話,幾乎樓下的她們都有聽到,淑靜只能坐在那裡接受審判。

這幾天大伯帶著女朋友去墾丁玩,順道來博正的家住一晚;因為淑靜在果菜批發商裡做會計,所以早上六點就要上班。大伯一早起來聽博正說淑靜去上班了,他和女朋友心想淑靜大概還沒吃早餐吧!兩人買了一份早餐送給淑靜吃。
淑靜接著這一份熱騰騰的早餐,眼淚差點留下來,連她自己的老公都沒這麼體貼。

淑靜懷孕了,連續好幾天晚上電話鈴聲響,博正去接,對方都沒有出聲音,最後博正有聽到一個男人的聲音。他掛斷電話,「妳在外面交男朋友?」[你在說什麼啊?」淑靜一臉疑惑。「妳給我戴綠帽子,是不是?這肚子裡的孩子是誰的?」博正的臉上寫滿了忌妒,懷疑。[這肚子裡的孩子當然是你的,還會有誰的?」淑靜撫著肚子想保護她。「我的?妳想騙誰,男的找到這裡來了。走,去把她拿掉。走。」 拉起淑靜往外走「博正,你不要這樣好不好?就為了一通莫名其妙的電話,你就判我這種行你太不可理喻了。」淑靜甩開他的手,摸著被他拉疼的地方。我不可理喻?對,我就是不可理喻,我就是不要這個孩子,走,去拿他。」
博正不管淑靜的掙扎,硬把她帶到醫院拿掉孩子。淑靜萬念俱灰躺在床上哭,博正連一句安慰話也沒。

就這樣,只要淑靜一懷孕,他就帶她去拿掉孩子。淑靜的媽媽遠從花蓮來看淑靜,她看到淑靜消瘦的身材,面無血色的臉龐,問她,「淑靜,妳是沒在吃,是不是?怎麼瘦那麼多「有呀!」「有?有會那麼瘦,簡直不成人樣。」媽媽捨不得的說。淑靜把事情從頭到尾說給媽媽聽,媽媽聽的大發雷霆,「跟他離婚,我們家這一口飯給妳。」「媽,妳不要生氣啦!這是我選的,我就該承擔。「妳怎麼那麼傻,當初為什麼不告訴媽媽,媽媽可以帶妳去做手術。」「我也沒想那麼多。」那妳現在怎麼辦?一懷孕就拿掉?妳不知道這比生小孩還要傷身體嗎?」
媽媽真擔心才二十二歲的淑靜怎麼過! 未來幾十年的婚姻生活?「媽,我也不知道該怎麼辦?」她喑喑咽咽的哭起來。媽媽拍拍她的肩,「別哭,媽媽帶妳去醫院裝避孕器。既然博正不愛惜妳,妳要愛惜妳自己,知道嗎?」
淑靜利用果菜市場休假期間回去看小孩,小姑常常向她提起一個男孩子。淑靜了解小姑戀愛了,可是那個男孩竟比小姑小三歲,公婆當然不答應。二日來,她觀察小姑每天早上都會從皮包裡拿個像避孕藥丸的東西吃,淑靜又不敢私自打開小姑的皮包,只好回去時再告訴博正。「真有這種事?」博正不大相信。「這只是我的猜測。博正,你要不要叫小姑來我們這邊問看看?」
「嗯~我會打電話給她,先騙她說要帶她去玩,等她來了再問吧!」博正拿電話家,終於她上勾了,就等她星期日來的時候再說。
「二哥,二嫂,我來了。」博美一進門就找他們。看到小姑來了,淑靜好高興,「妳來了呀!來,坐。」博正從房裡出來,「坐車會不會累?」
博美接下二嫂的飲料,「不會,二哥,你要帶我到哪裡去玩?」「看妳想去哪裡玩,二哥就帶妳去;不過妳要老實的回答二哥的問題。」博正神色凝重的說。「幹嘛!二哥,表情那麼嚴肅,好吧!你問。」博美不知死活的喝著飲料。「聽爸媽說妳交了一個男朋友?」「嗯!」「而且還小妳三歲?」「嗯!」「你們進展到什麼地步了?牽手?接吻?還是已經……發生關係?」「我…..」博美不知該怎麼說?博正看到妹妹的表情和支支吾吾的說不出話來,大概也知道答案。「爸媽絕不會答應妳嫁給一個小妳三歲的男人,妳知道吧!」「我頂多不嫁。」博美嘔氣的說。「不嫁?就跟那個混小子一直鬼混下去?」博正對著妹妹吼。
從來沒有被哥哥罵過的博美,哭了起來。淑靜坐在她旁邊安慰博美:「小姑,妳哥哥是關心妳,女人總是老的比較快,他怕到時妳嫁過去,人老珠黃時,那個男孩子會拋棄妳,了解嗎?」「二嫂,我知道,可是我沒辦法斷啊!我把一切都給他了。」博美講到這裡越哭越大聲。沒有關係,二嫂帶妳去做處女膜手術,只要妳跟他不再往來,好不好?我們可以再重新開始?」淑靜抱著她。
過了三個月,博美和那個男孩子總算不再往來,淑靜陪著博美去一家整形外科做處女膜整形回到家,博美拉著淑靜的手,「二嫂,謝謝妳。」淑靜只是笑一笑。「博美,妳二嫂已經帶妳去做了手術,以後不管怎樣都不能再隨便和男人上床,除非新婚之夜才可以,知不知道?」「二哥,我知道啦!」博美答應二哥,經過這次教訓,她不會再重蹈覆策了。過了一年,博美經由朋友介紹認識了一個男孩,交往半年,男方說他三十二歲年紀不小了,要到博美的家提親,博美也答應。訂婚後,男孩子都會暗示博美想要進一步的發展,但是博美想起二哥的叮嚀,都拒絕他。自從淑靜帶著博美去做手術後,兩人的關係比姊妹還要親。3月後博美嫁出去了,淑靜很擔心博美的整形手術不知道會不會成功?在博美上禮車前,小聲的說:「小姑,明天早上記得打電話給我。」
一早,淑靜就待在電話旁等候,婆婆來叫淑靜去掃地,洗衣,博正都會替淑靜回答:「媽,我來就好。」婆婆看著他們兩人感情什麼時候變這麼好,「不用了。」說完就走。終於鈴聲響了,淑靜馬上接起電話,「喂,小姑……成功了嗎?…真的……好,再見。」「怎樣?有成功嗎?」博正緊張的問她
「嗯!成功了。」淑靜笑一笑博正高興的抱著淑靜,「謝謝妳。」推開了博正,淑靜苦笑著,「不用謝我,我只是不想再有第二個吳淑靜。」
說完就拿起掃把掃地。博正聽完淑靜的話,才知道自己傷害她有多深。他下定決心,從現在開始,他要好好的愛她。
淑靜最近這幾個月的月經都不順,不是太早就是太晚,她不在意;直到這次的月經血流量多的讓她雙腳發軟,她才去看醫生。黃太太,妳這種情形已經多久?」醫生看到淑靜從內診室出來,問她。淑靜坐在椅子上,「大概將近一年了。」「妳怎麼拖那麼久才來?妳有拿過小孩吧?刮除不乾淨,再加上傷到子宮壁,妳的子宮裡長瘤,妳最好盡快開刀,要不然對妳不好喔!」醫生建議她。「醫生,那瘤是良性的還是惡性的?」「這要等妳開刀後拿去檢驗才知道。」
她六神無主的坐在客廳,連博正回來了她也不知道。博正脫下外套,看淑靜呆呆的坐在那裡一動也不動,親一下她的臉,「為了公司的事心情不好?」被突來的親吻驚醒的淑靜,一想到她和博正好不容易才剛開始的甜蜜生活,萬一在開刀中不幸走了,那她怎麼走的開?「妳怎麼哭了?什麼事讓妳這樣苦惱?」博正擦擦她的淚。「我要開刀。」「開刀?為什麼要開刀?」博正看她好好的。「因為以前拿孩子太多次了,刮除不乾淨,再加上傷到子宮,我的子宮裡長瘤。」淑靜把醫生診斷的話說給博正聽。
博正不敢相信自己以前的作為竟然造成淑靜現在的傷害那麼大,「什麼時候開刀?我陪妳。」「不用了,以前我生病你也沒陪我,這次我自己去就好。」淑靜不敢奢望。「淑靜,妳不要這樣好不好?我陪妳去,從頭到尾陪妳。」博正為自己的不是開始後悔。
開刀房前,淑靜的媽媽看到博正緊張的走來走去,不屑的說:博正,你現在走來走去是走真的?還是走給別人看的?要不是你醋桶那麼大,逼著淑靜一懷孕就拿掉,她今天會躺在開刀房任人宰割嗎?我是把話跟你講在前面,淑靜有個三長兩短,可別怪我不客氣。」博美看到親家母生氣的樣子,連忙出來替哥哥說情,「親家母,我二嫂不會有事的,二哥最近也對二嫂很好。」「最近才對她好有什麼用,平時不珍惜。」淑靜的媽媽替女兒打抱不平。「媽,對不起,我知道錯了,請妳原諒我。」博正一臉慚愧的站在丈母娘面前讓她數落
過了二個小時「吳淑靜的家屬」護士門口喊。
看到有人走過來,「你們是吳淑靜的家屬?她已經在恢復室,看誰要過去陪她?」淑靜的媽媽雖然想要進去,但她知道目前淑靜最想看的人是誰,所以就叫博正進去。
博正跟著護士來到淑靜的病床旁,淑靜的麻醉藥劑還沒退,躺在病床上像睡著一樣,消瘦的臉經過開刀更加沒有血色。博正深呼吸盡量不讓眼淚留下來。他聽護士的話,盡量跟淑靜說話不要讓她睡著。淑靜隨著麻醉藥劑漸漸退了,身體的病痛也越來越難過,她拉扯床巾,一直搖頭喊痛。博正一夜沒睡陪著她,這就是他種下的孽,也是他要承受的果。可是淑靜受的苦比他還多。
第二天,醫生來探房,簡單的和淑靜問幾句話後,叫博正出來。「你太太的檢驗報告出來了,是惡性腫瘤,而且已經轉變成癌症。」博正不敢相信,「會不會檢驗錯了?」醫生搖搖頭,「黃先生,她剩下的日子不多,好好陪她吧!」看到博正進來,淑靜問他,「博正,醫生跟你說什麼?怎麼那麼久。」「沒事,他只是說這幾天傷口好了就可以出院了,我剛剛去打電話給媽媽,告訴她這個好消息。」「喔!是這樣。我想睡了,可不可以請你幫我把床搖下來一點。」「好。」博正慢慢地把床搖下來,看著淑靜睡了,眼淚一滴滴的掉。
「你還我女兒來…還我女兒來……她好好的一個人嫁到你們家,做牛做馬,毫無怨尤……你還這樣對待她……你還是人嗎?」博正跪在靈前,任由丈母娘怎麼打,怎麼罵,他都不還手也不還口。是他對不起她,是他害她年紀輕輕的就這麼走了。「親家母,別打了,我知道這對妳很不公平,可是人死不能復生,妳就別再傷了。」
博正的爸爸扶起她。
「把她送回花蓮。」淑靜的媽媽很痛心的說。博正的媽媽一聽到馬上反對,「不行,親家母,她嫁到我們家來就是我們的人了,怎麼可以把她送回去?」你們的人?你們有當她是你們的人嗎?大冷天的叫她一個人洗一大桶的衣服,對她喚東喚西的,一下子要她做這個,一下子要她做那個,我看她是你們的僕人吧!」淑靜的媽媽把淑靜回娘家時說的苦處全說出來。
「妳……」博正的媽媽說不出話。「我地已經買好了,她生前都沒人疼,死後你們會去看她嗎?」媽,我求求妳,把她留下來好不好?」博正跪在淑靜的媽媽面前。「博正,不是我要把你們分開,可是你有沒有想過,當你硬拖著淑靜去墮胎時,淑靜也是像你現在求我的樣子在哀求你,求你相信她,求你讓她生下孩子,可是你是怎麼對待她的?她每次一懷孕,你就帶她去墮胎。」
博正的爸爸一聽到親家母的話,走過去揍博正一拳,「你這個畜生,你竟敢這樣對待淑靜,看我怎麼修理你。」
他一拳一拳的揍在博正的身上,直到博文強拉開爸爸。「親家母,妳帶淑靜回去吧!」博正的爸爸答應她。
今天是淑靜的忌日,博正牽著孩子來花蓮祭拜她。淑靜的媽媽正彎著腰拔著雜草,口中念念有詞的對著女兒說話。聽到一聲「媽。」她回過頭看到博正和孫子,不理會他們,繼續手上的動作,「你來這裡做什麼?你不覺得已經來不及了嗎?」博正把鮮花放在瓶子裡,因為淑靜在過世前,曾對他說:「博正,我沒有作對不起你的事, 你要相信我。萬一我死了,可以送我一對鮮花嗎?」即使是每天一束花他都願意,只要淑靜可以活過來可是已經來不及了。
「這時淑靜的媽媽從袋子裡拿出一本厚厚的書交給博正。~~我遇到那個叫博正的男孩,我! 好喜歡他………… 今天騎車和人家相撞,右腳的傷口好大,痛死了,全身酸痛,而且月經也來了,好 奇怪,才十天而已怎麼就來了?……………~~博正今天帶我去海邊玩,全身曬的紅通通的,下次要去海邊一定要記得擦防曬 油………~~昨天晚上和博正睡在一起,第一次好痛喔! 可是為什麼我沒有流血呢?奇怪,大家不是都說會流血的嗎? 博正會不會誤以為我不是處女呀?…………~~糟糕,月經已經超過一個月都沒來,怎麼辦? 會不會是懷孕了?………….~~博正聽到我懷孕了,說要娶我,我好高興,可是他是因為愛我才娶我? 還是因為肚子裡的小孩呢?……~~明天就要結婚了,我一定會好好的愛他,也會愛他的家人………淑-靜-」
博正概略的看完整本日記,大聲的喊著她的名字。對不起,我對不起妳。妳原諒我好不好?淑靜……..」他跪在地上把頭一直撞墓碑。「起來吧!她最愛的人是你,每次她回來說起你家的事,雖然很傷心,但她都一一承受起來。只要你相信她,我想她在九泉之下會瞑目的。」

淑靜的媽媽拉他起來.博正坐在地上,扯著頭髮,「我現在才相信她,已經太慢了」淑靜的媽媽拉下博正的手,「博正,不會太慢,淑靜這孩子心很軟,只要你真心誠意的相信她,她一定會原諒你的。」
每年,淑靜的墓前都會有一個男人,彎著身,拔著雜草,口中喃喃有辭的對她說話。

********************************************************************************************************思念總在分手後....為何總在失去後,才發現那是你的最愛!!男人就是這樣,總是希望自己的女人是處女....第一次就是要給他!!但他們有沒有想過,若是處女又不見得是第一次……...(可以去重做一個)
若不是處女又不一定不是第一次...(可能不小心傷到)話又說回來,男人希望自己的老婆是處女,自己又喜歡在婚前多玩幾個,這不是很矛盾嗎?由此可見,男人最自私....(當然也有少部份優質男性)但願像這樣的故事,能警惕各位男士,別讓它發生在你身上...好好愛惜你身邊的她吧愛她 疼她 多照顧她這個故事我看了好多次.............它真的很感人

Sunday, June 11, 2006

pangkor first day 07/06/06

first day ( 07/06/06)
i wake up at 5.30am.. after having my breakfast, i straight away go to choywan's house.. we took bus at 6.30am n reached KL at 8.00am.. joel they all already there, having their porridge...so "surprised" to see beh there.. hahaha.. he thought he can give me a surprise as he din tell me that he will join us to pangkor... hahaha.. but im too clever as i knew his plan since last week... hahaha...

after that, we walked to pudu raya.. kimkim already there waiting for us...on the way walked to pudu raya, choywan's lugguge was broken n she was so upset..she said she dun wan to go to pangkor as she feels that something will happen to her...but it is impossible to let her go back home at that moment.. so, we just continued walking...our bus(KL-Lumut bus) will depart at 8.30am BUT when we reached paltform14, the bus already gone..so surprised that the bus depart at 8.15am..this is very very weird because 99% of malaysian r not punctual.. malaysian has this bad habit n that's why many events or functions will be delayed...so, what came through my mind was the bus driver is not a malaysian!! =.=" nothing much we can do at that time n kimkim went to ask the authority to solve the problem.. the authority said we can take the bus at about 10.30am n we have to wait for it...but finally, since the KL-Ipoh-Lumut bus (8.45am) has enough seats for us, we decided to take that bus..i think joel feels so sorry at that time because he is the one who did the bus transport..

at about 2.30pm, we reached Lumut..kimkim n szehui went to buy the ferry tickets,lian n joel went to buy the Lumut-KL bus tickets..at about 2.45pm, we went to the ferry n took photo in the ferry...once again,choywan was so unlucky.. somebody stole her bag when we went to the back seat to take photo...my dear choywan felt to upset again.. she said she was very very very regret to go to pangkor.. there are IC, licence, keys, comb,handphone inside her bag..we found n found n found but still, we cant found her bag..so, when we reached pangkor, we took a taxi n went to police station to make a police report...i think this is the first time i go to police station..after making the police report, it is already 4.00pm.. we took taxi again to Nipah Bay Villa,a place where we stayed..

after a short break( i think it's just about half an hour),joel already making racket there... haha.. he said he wanna go to beach! all right, my childish joel..so, 6 of us agreed with him n went to beach...there were many many many people there..almost malays.. but i can still find out some lenglui wearing bikini!! hahaha...lovely figure! not like mine one.. hahaha..szehui said if she has those figure, she will also wear bikini!!!... haha... again, choywan really "hak lui", 4 guys "threw" choywan into the sea!! n now i think, choywan really really scare to approach water,especially the 4 guys beside her..haha..after that, we "buried" joel n took photo with him ... haha..after a lot of fun, we had a rest at the beach, n wait for sunset.. we had an oppotunity to took photo before the sun "drop" to the sea-surface.. thanks kimkim for teaching us to use the word "drop".. haha..














we had our dinner at 8.00pm in Nipah Bay Villa.. the food there are very spicy..n i did not eat much.. haha..just dunno why, i din feel hungry after all those fun..

after dinner, it's the time to have bathe! so, 7 people 1 toilet.. haha...szehui( our Fhilippine's maid) cannot tahan with the sand inside our room.. so, she get a broom n started sweeping the floor..lovely szehui likes our mother.. haha.. after that, we went to beach again to find " blue tear" (directly transfer from chinese)... this is the first time i see "blue tear".. really very beautiful..but unfortunately, the day cried after we saw the "blue tear".. so, what to do? we just walked back n had night activities inside the room.. we played cards..at about midnight ( about 1-2am), we all fall asleep.. haha.. this is the time i will be energetic..so,i started to "kacau" beh...we talked n talked n talked until 3.30am.. haha..really feel sorry to szehui cause she can only sleep after me n beh ended our conversation... hahaha...

first day was not tired.. cause most of the time we were inside the bus... haha..

Tuesday, June 06, 2006

pangkor trip's eve

tomorrow i have to wake up at 5.45am n meet choywan at her house at 6.20am. then we will take no.9 metro bus to kota raya n walk across the road to pudu raya..the bus to lumut,perak ( i think) will depart at 8.30am, platform 14..(14 is a bad number)..based on my estimation, choywan and i will reach kota raya at 7.40am..and we can have our breakfast before we meet joel they all at 8.00am..hope everything moves smooth...

yesterday night saw beh through msn n he told me that he had found a friend to replace him since he cant go to pangkor,yet he summitted the fees already...but kimkim has made the cancellation in the afternoon...so, what can i do? i just get the phone number of the Nipah Bay Villa from kimkim n ask beh to call...if the authority says can cancel the cancellation, then everything will back to normal..7 persons will go to pangkor n beh wont loss any money...

today morning called beh n he said he already called the anthority there n they said the fees is unrefundable but we can use the money to have more activities..the RM130 will share by 6 of us...n beh said since number 6 is better than 7( 6 can make pairs but 7 cant), then he suggested that just 6 of us go to pangkor..n he just loss RM19 for the ticket...(sorry that i mentioned wrongly on the previous post that beh will loss RM 38 because i though joel had brought two ways tickets).. i asked him to decide himself n after that, i called lian n ask for opinion... hahaha, lian, dun speak out what i told u ar....

after all those calls, i back to my maths... omg... i still have about 5 chapters!!n the inequalities is still blur...summore the coordinate geometry n functions are the worst... all the formulae have to memorize..differentiation n integration are still okie, not much different from form5..

good luck to my dear weiyao.. today is his last paper..all the best to him!=)

okie..have to back to maths already... already online about one hour...gambateh!

Monday, June 05, 2006

pangkor trip VS stranger

ya, today is monday.. have to start packing for the pangkor trip.. errm, what should i bring? how many clothes? do i need to bring along junk food?sweet?swimming suit?toothpaste? busy thinking all these small small questions... all right, calm down first, bring 3 clothes since the trip is 3D2N.. bring junk food since everyone loves to eat.. bring sweet so that everyone can have it on the bus..bring swimming suit so that u can play enough.. bring toothpaste in case nobody bring it... okie, settle!

there is a guy called my mobile phone recently.. n his number is 0162941531.. i believe he is a malay(mlz) or foreign worker.. i choose not to answer his call n let it become a missed call.. that's why almost all the phone number in my missed call list are his number...this guy really crazy, called me at 3.00am when i was slept..and unfortunately i did not turn my phone into silent mode..so, after that night,anyone who call when i sleep,feel so sorry to them because i dun think i will know u are calling me as i had turn my phone into silent mode..

boring day

yeye called me yesterday.. guess where is he now?haha.. is penang!! he asked me which shop we brought "heong pieng" last time during 5S2 class trip... n i told him is "ying xiang".. he sounded so confused as he thought is "xing xiang"...after a bit of "arguement", i found out that actually we were talking the same shop... n i was wrong.. the word "xing" is pronounces as "xing" n i thought is "ying"... omg... my chinese is getting worse...such a simple word also can pronounce it wrongly...

today online saw kimkim... he want me to confirm the number of people who will go to pangkor island on next wednesday, thursday n friday by tomorrow night...he said maybe the fees can be refunded as beh not sure whether he can go or not..if it is refundable, beh also loss RM38 because joel has brought the bus tickets for him... if it is not refundable, beh will lost RM 168... so, for me, the best solution is beh can go to pangkor, then i will be very happy,n he also wont loss any money...but the decision is based on him, not me... hehe...

today online also saw my dear sapo (sally).. sapo said she will back to malaysia on 16 of june... n promise yar sapo, do come n visit me...tomorrow sapo has to sit for her exam, good luck to sapo yar...

today very sien...woke up at 10am,n had my breakfast at 10.30am.. continue my "appointment" with mr.chou until 1.00pm... after that, online from 2 till now...SIEN!!!

The Da Vinci Code--- Cartoon Version

to all the passagers:

turn on ur speaker...

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~aNgeL iS hEre~

for all the passagers...

welcome to heaven,a place where angel stays...
welcome to heaven, u will have lots of fun here..
welcome to heaven, u will know whose ur angel is..
welcome to heaven, u can have ur dreams here..

welcome, my friends...